KZFDG

14404 pts ยท December 19, 2013


I'm here. There is nothing that I can write that can bridge the gap between us. Nothing that can make you feel as I feel or think as I think, nothing that can afford me your thoughts and feelings the way you experience them. We are distant across the world and distant regardless of this; the limitations I struggle with are just as real if you were in the room with me as I write this. We could sit across a table with a meal or around a fire with hot drinks. I still can't reach out and truely touch you. Could I share with you my whole life? Every moment, every half-lost memory, every smell and sight and sound? It is lost to me now too. So many days unremembered. Could you share with me yours? What is my purpose then? Trapped inside a body that will die, a mind that cannot even capture the tiny, simple life of one being, just one self. It makes me wish for God to take me, from this place and into them, so I could be more than this. I want to reach out and touch you. I want to comfort you against your fears and ease you from your concerns. I want to offer you care as though you were the most beloved thing in the universe; to care for you better than you know how to care for yourself. I want to reach out and touch you. I want to sit with you for days and weeks and learn everything about you. I want to know what makes your soul yours, how you grew up, who you have loved and how love has felt inside you. What makes you happy, what you strive for and what caring means to you. I want to lie to you; to say that I will remember everything you tell me, that I will keep it in a limitless mind that will carry your story and essence forwards into eternity. Beyond a tiny life spent on a rocky green blue blip of something in an endless nothing. Beyond days of work and days of leisure, beyond our sunshine and our sweat, to a place where it matters. Where fond memories are eternal instead of temporary, where determination and dedication earn more than a lifetime's work and where no good deed goes unrewarded. I want to be the source of your relaxation after a long, hard day of work. I want you to know your thoughts and feelings have value, for you to be truely seen and heard and cherished. I want to be this thing to you. If I could strive against any force in the universe for this I would do so until I it took my life from me. I want to reach out and touch you. I want to hear about the time you kissed someone and loved them at the same time. I want to be able to feel what both of these things felt like for you and speak to me, what they sing inside my soul. I want to be witness to your heartfelt love and heartbreak both and drown my consciousness on a drifting sea of reality, harsh truths and tender goodbyes. I can't ever have this thing. I can't reach out and touch you.

There go the elections

5 months ago | Likes 3 Dislikes 1

Hi, you might like to read "The Authoritarian" by Bob Altemeyer, free online. Just a useful authoritarian demagogue for RWA's (read the book) to vote for, installed as part of a long game by fascists.

5 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

I had a browser tab open, to some Imgur art that I liked a lot, for 4 years until Imgur blocked the UK and I lost all my tabs

5 months ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

"You are the only thing in any room you're ever in..."

6 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Sorry to correct you, but that isn't the character Gordon Deitrich from the graphic novel, that's the movie version.

In the graphic novel Gordon Deitrich is a man who has nothing to do with the entertainment industry and takes Evey in when she is returned to the streets of London after meeting V. They form a romantic relationship and he is later killed by a gangster.

Movie people just used the same name for a totally made up character.

6 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Wow that flashing about a third of the way in was severe

6 months ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

Wish I could help... sending you strength fwiw

6 months ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

It'll happen. My mom has played Age of Empires 2 almost every day since it released...

6 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Yay! Love these :)

6 months ago | Likes 5 Dislikes 1

Thank you :)

6 months ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

Do you know a good alternative to the meat in these that is also gluten free by any chance? It's a struggle.

6 months ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

The "I shouldn't have taken the LSD" is a panel from V for Vendetta by Alan Moore and David Lloyd

6 months ago | Likes 7 Dislikes 0

I would hope that someone would share even a tenth of what you have about Sage when I die. Remembering is important. I send you strength.

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6 months ago | Likes 5 Dislikes 0

You are so talented

6 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

It's been in my desktop background gallery for like 15 years

7 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Looks like Wombwell

7 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Hey bro sorry the overlords have decided genocide is in vogue atm, didn't you hear? We gotta be okay with a little genocide so the ruling class can keep doing whatever they want

7 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Your salads always look so good. I literally have your post from May still open in a tab to encourage me to learn to make better salads...

7 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

There's a place in England called Castleford and it used to have the largest stone-ground, water powered flour mill on earth. It was owned by an American flour giant company until they moved to electric milling in a big new facility near Hull.

When they left, they poured concrete into the machinery that drove the water wheel to make sure no-one could compete... after years derelict the local community bought it, and spent years digging out the concerete. It's a working stoneground mill again.

7 months ago | Likes 5 Dislikes 0

Please tattoo this on your forehead, make sure it's clear in dating app photos. It will save people a lot of time.

7 months ago | Likes 5 Dislikes 0

I sleep on the floor, because I got used to sleeping on the floor as a kid

7 months ago | Likes 10 Dislikes 0

I myself am from Any Vefoina, a brave place where the men are men, women are women, and the mandatory shumbling that shuffles which you are is still treated with the due respect. We have excellent state services to help us transition from male jobs (homemaker, baker, candlestick maker) and the female jobs (reverse lumberjack, cossack, Impersonator of Jack Kerouac). If you visit don't forget to bring your own bees.

7 months ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 0

I'll paint 40k minis with you. Disclaimer: I don't look anything like the woman pictured

7 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, redcurrants, blackcurrants and gooseberries. Also elderberries but I haven't figured out how to use them yet

7 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

What's the bottom middle one from?

7 months ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

I'm a very autistic bi introvert weirdo... I just grow fruit, do my day job and play videogames. Meeting people is hard.

7 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Top tier, thank you

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