endomorph

15167 pts · January 15, 2011


No quote! ________________________________ ^ This was up for 14 years; the only thing I wrote in "ABOUT"... Now, here's some (f)actual stuff about me: I'm Ends, 38-year-old, ace-ish (definitely Demi) Para-guy with AuDHD, PTSD, Bipolar II, and other disorders. I was born and live in Augsburg, Bayern, Deutschland (Germany). I <3 my city and am lucky to have been born in these parts. I fumble-y play the guitar and sing kinda okay on some days, and I know & can do all sorts of things! I have experienced many forms of abuse, lived fast and recklessly, treated my body as if nothing could really hurt me… I love (and hate having to depend on) drugs, and know how it is and what it means to be an addict, and I know what rock bottom feels like. I detoxed from Alcohol more times than I can count (dozens & dozens & more), and I know 3 or 6 other kinds of withdrawal. I consider myself a cured alcoholic now, was dry for 4½ years, starting in the pandemic lockdown times… (Yay!) … but am currently doing some controlled drinking w/ simple rules: 1) No drinking away a hangover… don't even start a day in a way the night before ended. 2) No wine, no Schnaps (liquor). Stick to beer; best even: stick to a beer/Sprite mix. So far that's going fine. I cut it off once I had enough. I pause once I build up a tolerance. However, I'm still physically dependent on 4 different prescription drugs. I had quit smoking for most of '24, after 21 years, but picked it up again when I went through a suicidal phase after New Year's Day. F Nicotine— worthless shit-drug. After 2½ decades of enduring fybromyalgic (or w/e) muscle pains, finally I found medication that alleviates at least most of it, and I'm working on my C-PTSD, desensitizing the stuck images & feelings (the events I can remember, there's a lot of stuff missing). So rn it's tidying up my life, keeping up with things that need doing & trying to unwind on the few really good days that I have (not more than a handful per month). Mostly, things still suck. But I'm still here, and I'm trying. My few friends & my family love me. I help people. That's what I do best. I love NOFX, Doug Stanhope, and of course, as we all should, Lain. https://fauux.neocities.org/lovelain DON'T CLICK ON THE NAUSEATING ANIMATED ANSI ART PICTURE! (But IF you do anyway, there's a whole gallery of these masterpieces!) Oh, you're still reading this? Then, have a splendid day or night, wherever you are. Live long and prosper.

Come and join the party - dressed to kill!

2 weeks ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

As a German who's been to a concentration camp, I can't help but find this joke in all its iterations unoriginal & tasteless at best. Sorry.

2 weeks ago | Likes 21 Dislikes 0

Moon Knight things, I'd prefer. The comics R awesome. He REALLY fucks bad guys up. Dunno a lot of Frank Castle; seems 2 tame 4 the task tho.

1 month ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

Same with And Now for Something Completely Different, innit? I laughed my ass off as a kid. Sketch delivery better as in Flying Circus, imo.

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T.C. may be a weird zealot cult-member insane person, but I respect his drive and enjoy the movies he makes, brain turned off to various °s.

2 months ago | Likes 11 Dislikes 2

A lot of bases & training grounds closed after German reunification. Meh. I wish they'd stop relaying deadly drone operations, for a start!

2 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Like russia & Israel. A special operation. Sum mission w/ 'humanitarian', 'aid' or 'peace' in its title…
"Supportin' the shit outta you! 😘"

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Ooh, it's been a turbulent solstice.
But my fam & 3 friends have my back & I'll fight the bs. Keep my chin up. Not this time; not again!
I hope to get what I hoped for eventually. I got the rest! :D So yes, and thank you!
Hope your wishes 'gon come true as well. 🩷🤍💜🖤💙 Frohe Festtage noch, und ein schönes neues Jahr! (Merry celebration-days still, and a beautiful new year! ;) 🌠✨🌛

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Fuck Endo. It's really a FU to the whole sex.
May you have many Endorphins in '26 instead!
As the patron saint of the molecule, so be it. 🙌

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

I will watch your channel & if something stands out / comes to mind, I'll let you know on here, sure! Deal.
Thank you ^-^
You too brother!!

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

>> (cont'd) Aaaand, subscribed on the 'tube.
Fröhliche Weihnachten aus Augsburg, Bayern! Und ein gutes neues Jahr. (:

3 months ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

Btw, you're the only entirely non-annoying person out of all (soo many) who make content "like yours". The opposite! Keep up the fight! 🎄🖖

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 1

>> But (at least, happily!) it's not your run-of-the-mill CA in this case, I'm pretty certain.

Anyway: Good lookin', @SpacePirate666! Emos unite!

Cheers y'all, and a Merry Christmas from Bavaria; The Texas of Germany®! <3

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

>> But they're also not "uniform", or rather congruent with how they look in 'real' anaglyph imagery.
At the very least, I can see @OP crisp and clear. ^_^

So I reckon the image wasn't composed outta two offset separate photos, but rather with software to emulate the process, or just the effect/style. Just like @xETM, I've been wrong before though; it's hard to differentiate real anaglyphic shit from chromatic aberration & similar effects sometimes. >>

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

It's Magenta/Cyan!
As a nerd All Things Anaglyph and a poor person w/ neither a good graphics card nor VR goggles, I naturally posess 'all' the glasses! R/B, M/C, even the amber Colorcode ones. I play a lot of (older) PC games in 3D that way (ReShade is a blessing)…
On Topic again: With my beloved lenses, OP's pic has a SLIGHT stereoscopic effect. But the separation is minimal. It certainly seems a liiiiitle thinner in the back, the lines… >>

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Well, w/ the fuckloads of iconography, style, language etc. misappropriated by various gens of Nazis over time, too much is suspect. Sadly.

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

German here. Nah. Looks far from it.

3 months ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

Frohe Weihnachten from Bavaria!

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Merry Christmas from Bavaria.
Good tidings for the coming year! <3

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Merry Crimespree
And thanks for the merry song at the end, that was a nice touch :) also good memes (I stole a few)

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Frohe Weihnachten Cody!
And best of luck in the new year as well. Have a good one. Greetz from Bavaria.

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If it was so fuckable, it probably was just a regular Succubus trying to be sneaky.

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Promises promises… disappointment after disappointment, full disillusionment @ the age of 13… But the boomers wouldn't wanna hear any of it.

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

The whole forum was about info & safe use, but some users did reckless experiments. There's a looong thread dedicated to the dead & missing.

3 months ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

"I heard a thousand people screaming while three billion others cheered;
He was gone…"
NOFX - The Man I Killed

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She'd ran outta Ritalin & had to do shit, but the idea kinda backfired. Jittery, hyperfocus on random things, heart POUNDING. Not great, lol

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

TY! May yours be righteously radical! :D Your posts & personality never fail to make me smile, grin, and happy. Congrats on your success! (:

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Cocaine makes you the most important person in the world. To yourself. Tried it a few times & couldn't stand the bullshit leaving my mouth.

3 months ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

I used to frequent a drug forum. One female user took 1000mg of Caffeine pills as initial dose one day. That thread was quite the laugh.

3 months ago | Likes 3 Dislikes 0

Zen browser lets you choose if you want the vertical ones or the old style. If Waterfox doesn't have that, it must be doable in about:config

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