trying to live the dream in Tampa, Fl. professional lurker almost 40 year old white guy I'm scared but intreged about the next couple of years. no babies,but still living hand to mouth. The love of my life for the last 20 years left me and I'm hoping to reconcile with her one day. Otherwise, I stay in my buddy's RV. update! it turned out she was seeing someone else the whole time! I don't blame her, I know who I am. I don't even like myself. stay safe out there.....