62176 pts · March 14, 2017
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As a dutchy... i appreciate this
@madampuddifoot Thank you! Perhaps the awesome date stumbles on to you when you arent looking. (if thats what you desire) For me... 😂 I just hope my personality does not turn people off. I could place myself in the big bang theory... thats atleats how weird i feel compared to the stereotype guy. 🤣 Definitely not the macho type. I just wish i knew what people meant with "Looking for leadership/ambition"
I wish you luck. I have not payed for it, but i found it less of a "Meat gallery" then tinder. It obviously depends on active users in the area.
Ever since EMDR the majority extreme issues went down. I hope that the change of that is permanent. The group therapy exposed a lot of why i do things and what is going on subconsciously. The struggle with the 'personally traits' my c-ptsd gave me are going to be a minefield, but so far navigating it ok. The last line nails it... it really doesOn a side note, I hope you yourself are also doing well, because you also deserve it!
Glad to hear it worked with you as-well! I was skeptical at first myself, because eye movement and memories felt unconnected, but one whiteboard worth of topics and several months later I stand corrected. I can think of what happened and not get flooded with emotions. :) However its not guaranteed to help.
Thank you! Glad to be here. I hope to let other people know that its possible. Pay-it-forward kind of. We can do it! Lets keep at it URNOTFUNNY1226
Thank you! I am sorry to hear you struggled with a someone close with mental health. I know from personal experience how self destructive c-ptsd behavior can be. Basically stuck in a fight/flight/freeze mode 24/7. And I do revel in it! (weird to say it) and want to let others know that it is possible to break the cycle! Everyone is worth loving and life.
It took ma a while to find the courage to get this ball rolling. We are talking years! But I am sure that you can do it aswell! I believe in you!
I have made a few "friends", but honestly the IT department i work at (great and supportive guys, its like a cheer leading squad for the IQ test) are all guys. And outside that its a lot of women, but again i feel i would not stand a chance. (on top of getting HR on my case) outside of that i go to the gym about 6-10 hours a week. 50/50 cardio and weights, but most women are beyond fit and again out of my league. And i would be yet another creep not letting them workout. So i dont know what else
On a side note, I know its weird that I am dyslectic, but with a high IQ. My brain is good at solving puzzles, but just outright refuses to learn grammar. I also noted i made a spelling mistake or two in the post, but that is my insecurities going to town.
This seemed perfect for me, since I am looking for a life partner and not some quick hookup. I felt it would attract more serious men and women. (the first bit... since i was isolated... yeah never really dove into that realm) TMI? TMI! Sorry
Bumble is like tinder, but has a lot more focus on bio's. On top of that bumble keeps the initiative with the women. If you match she has to initiate first contact.
This is true. I keep telling myself not to let a few set backs get me down. There is more opportunities out there. The biggest win is not giving in to my old ptsd problems ^_^ :D
Thank you! I hope others find the courage to break the mental health grid lock! Job hunt was a pain in the ass, but my current team leader is amazing. He even encouraged me to study. Its the college that fails my application... even though i basically aced the IQ test, but got a few points to short on my native language test (even tough i am dyslectic) :D
From what I know purring can be a sign of good and a sign of 'self soothing' if it is very bad
Obviously the Roman period was the first period I came across. The roman legions spilling blood truelly marks history.
As someone who does not live in a country that celebrates Halloween i get this feel about a month long.
statistical science guarantees it lol
haha its the site i just to test my regex's when i was learning about it
what GakiNoTsukai is that? xD
yes please
Thank you very much my friend! I try to tell myself that and I have gotten help, but my problems are an extreme case. Weekly suicidal thoughts are an improvement for me. I described the cluster-f of problems in the top post. It stems of abuse i suffered from age 5 to 18 years old.
I have gone through two therapies and a half year long weekly PTSD treatment course. I have seen shit I wish I did not see and live to tell the tale, but am rejected on each side by society.. because my resume shows a gap. I could not finish college... I dont have many friends (1-ish) and no relationship. Society is harsh against those that are broken or fall... relentless persuit of money and greed by the top push down those that cannot run the race at top speed.
shift we need to make is that we culturally accept then men can be weak. That we do not need to be Alpha's that talking about the problems is ok. That we encourage each-other to be honest. And don't punish those that are, but punish those that ridicule. Don't accept a 'I am fine' and intervene with bullying. Kids that are broken and snap before adulthood might turn violent. I have thought about harming my class that ruined my life.
As a dutchy... i appreciate this
@madampuddifoot Thank you! Perhaps the awesome date stumbles on to you when you arent looking. (if thats what you desire) For me... 😂 I just hope my personality does not turn people off. I could place myself in the big bang theory... thats atleats how weird i feel compared to the stereotype guy. 🤣 Definitely not the macho type. I just wish i knew what people meant with "Looking for leadership/ambition"
I wish you luck. I have not payed for it, but i found it less of a "Meat gallery" then tinder. It obviously depends on active users in the area.
Ever since EMDR the majority extreme issues went down. I hope that the change of that is permanent. The group therapy exposed a lot of why i do things and what is going on subconsciously. The struggle with the 'personally traits' my c-ptsd gave me are going to be a minefield, but so far navigating it ok. The last line nails it... it really does
On a side note, I hope you yourself are also doing well, because you also deserve it!
Glad to hear it worked with you as-well! I was skeptical at first myself, because eye movement and memories felt unconnected, but one whiteboard worth of topics and several months later I stand corrected. I can think of what happened and not get flooded with emotions. :) However its not guaranteed to help.
Thank you! Glad to be here. I hope to let other people know that its possible. Pay-it-forward kind of. We can do it! Lets keep at it URNOTFUNNY1226
Thank you! I am sorry to hear you struggled with a someone close with mental health. I know from personal experience how self destructive c-ptsd behavior can be. Basically stuck in a fight/flight/freeze mode 24/7. And I do revel in it! (weird to say it) and want to let others know that it is possible to break the cycle! Everyone is worth loving and life.
I have made a few "friends", but honestly the IT department i work at (great and supportive guys, its like a cheer leading squad for the IQ test) are all guys. And outside that its a lot of women, but again i feel i would not stand a chance. (on top of getting HR on my case) outside of that i go to the gym about 6-10 hours a week. 50/50 cardio and weights, but most women are beyond fit and again out of my league. And i would be yet another creep not letting them workout. So i dont know what else
On a side note, I know its weird that I am dyslectic, but with a high IQ. My brain is good at solving puzzles, but just outright refuses to learn grammar. I also noted i made a spelling mistake or two in the post, but that is my insecurities going to town.
This seemed perfect for me, since I am looking for a life partner and not some quick hookup. I felt it would attract more serious men and women. (the first bit... since i was isolated... yeah never really dove into that realm) TMI? TMI! Sorry
Bumble is like tinder, but has a lot more focus on bio's. On top of that bumble keeps the initiative with the women. If you match she has to initiate first contact.
This is true. I keep telling myself not to let a few set backs get me down. There is more opportunities out there. The biggest win is not giving in to my old ptsd problems ^_^ :D
Thank you! I hope others find the courage to break the mental health grid lock! Job hunt was a pain in the ass, but my current team leader is amazing. He even encouraged me to study. Its the college that fails my application... even though i basically aced the IQ test, but got a few points to short on my native language test (even tough i am dyslectic) :D
From what I know purring can be a sign of good and a sign of 'self soothing' if it is very bad
Obviously the Roman period was the first period I came across. The roman legions spilling blood truelly marks history.
As someone who does not live in a country that celebrates Halloween i get this feel about a month long.
statistical science guarantees it lol
haha its the site i just to test my regex's when i was learning about it
what GakiNoTsukai is that? xD
Thank you very much my friend! I try to tell myself that and I have gotten help, but my problems are an extreme case. Weekly suicidal thoughts are an improvement for me. I described the cluster-f of problems in the top post. It stems of abuse i suffered from age 5 to 18 years old.
I have gone through two therapies and a half year long weekly PTSD treatment course. I have seen shit I wish I did not see and live to tell the tale, but am rejected on each side by society.. because my resume shows a gap. I could not finish college... I dont have many friends (1-ish) and no relationship. Society is harsh against those that are broken or fall... relentless persuit of money and greed by the top push down those that cannot run the race at top speed.
shift we need to make is that we culturally accept then men can be weak. That we do not need to be Alpha's that talking about the problems is ok. That we encourage each-other to be honest. And don't punish those that are, but punish those that ridicule. Don't accept a 'I am fine' and intervene with bullying. Kids that are broken and snap before adulthood might turn violent. I have thought about harming my class that ruined my life.