IHaveAGuyForEverything
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Idk why I keep doing this. I drink a 750ml bottle every night. Wake up KNOWING I won’t drink tonight. Then, repeat it. Every problem in my life would be solved by quitting, but here I am again. Fucking tired of it. Tried therapy, SO many meds including ones that make me sick when I drink and many, many anti-depressants. Always end up back here. Can’t do in house rehab or I’d lose my job and no one to take care of my disabled adult daughter. I’m close to being done, but then wtf happens to my kid?!
notificationstation
I’m sorry you’re going through this, OP. For what it’s worth, AA was a huge help for me in the first few years. At the very least, it felt nice knowing I wasn’t the only one who just couldn’t get my shit together.
igoogleboobs
I know this doesn’t help much, but I’m rooting for you @op and I hope things get better for you…I’m happy that you’re still here and trying 🩵
ByBil
I almost gave up but in a moment of clarity I made a decision. I started IOP that got me through the worst of it and also got me to my first AA meeting and that has gotten me to 5 years as of this month. I think it's possible to do it alone, but it is a lot easier with people who have been there.
Dannoboyo
NGL, I learned a lot at AA meetings. Some people can do controlled drinking, but I cannot. All it took for me was to lose everything in life I cared about, then I was ready.
CuriousRex
Hi friend, I remember being here. Going to an AA meeting saved my life. I couldn't help myself but I was sick of disappointing my loved ones. It took me a couple of times going back after taking a break but Im sober now. One day at a time. ❤️
DJOldguy
My unborn son was the catalyst for me to take very difficult look at my life, that and the pile of scrap metal that used to be my car the morning after I found out about him. That was 45 years ago, been sober ever since. I went cold turkey, no meds, no counsellors, just my wife. Not gonna kid you it was easy, it wasn't, especially dealing with the shakes and shit. My doctor was happy I was off the booze, but reamed me a new one for not getting "appropriate support". It's all in your head! DO IT!
ArkoneAxon
It helps if you can remove the source of the temptation. Is there a way to make sure that there's no alcohol at home whenever you come home?
Exyr
A fifth a day?
IHaveAGuyForEverything
Yes.
GravyEducation
I have been there. It's hard. One thing you can do for yourself is memorize the calculation of "units of alcohol." One unit varies but typically is "this is gonna make you drunk for 1 hour." Amount in ml, multiply by the ABV in percentage, divide by 1000. A 750 will leave you intoxicated for on average the next 30 hours. Take smaller bottles and try to measure out lesser amounts and just try to drink slower... I know it's hard but presenting it to yourself that way may help. That's what I do 1/
GravyEducation
Any progress is progress is progress, but that step helped me (particularly after covid unemployment) to say hey, how about that's way too much? If you do a 750 every 24 hours, you're not only never gonna be sober, you're gonna continually get drunker until your body just passes out. Good luck.
Dapperworth
Asking these questions and posting this is a bigger step than you're giving yourself credit for.
IHaveAGuyForEverything
Ty. I’m giving it another go after tonight. I’ve asked my daughter to not let me leave the house without her after tonight as a deterrent. Here’s hoping.
UnitConversionBot
750ml ≈ 1.59 us pints or 1.32 imperial pints
DancesWithHippos
Bad timing, bot.