I don't want to ever say anything about it.

Jan 12, 2017 7:06 PM

RagingBrainor

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A little over 7 years ago I was raped (I got my cat that I mentioned in another post because of this). I ended up getting pregnant from the rape but didn't find out until I was 6 months along. I had no idea I was pregnant, none of the signs were there and dealing with the trauma made me assume I wasn't getting my period because of the stress. I actually lost weight as well.

I ended up placing the baby up for adoption and did the best I could to move on with my life. I do my best to not think about it but sometimes I feel guilty that I haven't told my boyfriend about it. Now that a year has passed I feel that to much time has gone by to reveal such a big secret. I don't think I'll ever tell him.

As adptive parent keep it 2 urself & know u hav done a wndrfl thng form a terrible thing. U r wndrfl. child is wonderfl. B wndrfl $ & ❤️hm.

7 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

Its understable why u havent given circumstances. If and when your ready, dont fear telling the truth. You did what you had to.

9 years ago | Likes 48 Dislikes 2

Are you not telling him because you feel he will respond in a bad way?

9 years ago | Likes 14 Dislikes 1

This is how to confess

9 years ago | Likes 15 Dislikes 3

Major props for giving that kid life and a family that wanted it, in spite of the circumstances.

9 years ago | Likes 6 Dislikes 3

You don't have to if you don't want to, just shut the door on it and be done until you want to. You don't owe anybody anything

9 years ago | Likes 11 Dislikes 1

You may not be ready to tell him now, but I feel like you will eventually. Don't feel guilty. c:

9 years ago | Likes 108 Dislikes 2

I would understand if my girlfriend didn't tell me something like this until several years into our relationship.

9 years ago | Likes 21 Dislikes 0

This. My ex is a survivor, and we were together for quite a while before she was able to tell me about it. You'll be all right.

9 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

What happened to you is insanely unfair. The injustice to you will continue if you choose to hide something this big from your partner

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 1

Tell him at a good time. My gf of 1 year said she was raped while we were fighting.

9 years ago | Likes 7 Dislikes 0

It's never too late. It'll be the best decision to tell him, and sooner rather than later. If he loves you for real then it's no big thing.

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 1

❤️?

4 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

I feel like this isn't something you bring up at first, but rather only with someone you've dated a while, he'll prolly understand

9 years ago | Likes 5 Dislikes 0

Honestly your bf doesn't need to know. You did the best thing for you and that baby, who never needs to know how it was conceived

9 years ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 0

Honestly, it's more for your benefit if you decide to tell him or not tell him. It really has very little to do with him.

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Damn I probably would have thrown myself down stairs a bunch and tried to miscarry I know that sounds awful but as

9 years ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 2

a rape victim myself its really not

9 years ago | Likes 3 Dislikes 1

As the boyfriend of a previous rape victim, the knowledge doesn't break the relationship. Knowing allows your partner to support you (1/2)

9 years ago | Likes 33 Dislikes 1

emotionally and brings the two of you closer. If knowing hurts the relationship, he might not be the right guy for you anyway. (2/2)

9 years ago | Likes 23 Dislikes 0

As the ex partner of a rape victim, I agree.

9 years ago | Likes 8 Dislikes 0

Holy shit, this is the 2nd Confession Bear on this subject I've seen... I wish I had something profound to say. You know when it's right.

9 years ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 2

Good for you going through with the pregnancy and choosing to give up for adoption. The secret will likely eat away at you, tell the truth

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 1

I was put up for adoption when i was born and upon further the woman refused to put any information about the guy. 1

9 years ago | Likes 7 Dislikes 0

I suspect rape might be why and havent made contact for that reason.

9 years ago | Likes 7 Dislikes 0

You don't need absolution from anyone and it is no one else's business.

4 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

Good job OP, you gave a child a chance to live

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 1

Do you ever wonder what your kid is up to? I'm adopted but don't know anything about my biological parents, so that's why I was curious

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 1

This is your story. If you want to share it, good for you. If you want to keep it to yourself, good for you.

5 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

It was.your body and your life. I don't think you should feel guilt, you should feel pride that you came through a horrific situation 1/2

9 years ago | Likes 6 Dislikes 1

If your partner isn't supportive, then they aren't the right person for you.

9 years ago | Likes 5 Dislikes 0

It should be something you can share, especially if u feel it will benefit you, it shouldn't be used to judge you.

9 years ago | Likes 5 Dislikes 0

I can tell you first hand that a caring partner wants to know about rape experiences and consequences, regardless of time gone by.

9 years ago | Likes 365 Dislikes 2

Time him when your ready but before you get married

9 years ago | Likes 3 Dislikes 0

And the same partner can also be understanding if it takes a while.

9 years ago | Likes 24 Dislikes 0

Most certainly.

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

It helps them connect to you and support you.

9 years ago | Likes 50 Dislikes 0

Who knows the bf also got raped before, more connection.

9 years ago | Likes 6 Dislikes 8

Yeah, that's uh.... not what I meant.

9 years ago | Likes 6 Dislikes 0

Personally, if my girlfriend was in your situation, I'd care more about her being raped than becoming pregnant from the act; i would....

9 years ago | Likes 12 Dislikes 0

Yeah I meant talking about both things, really, without priority to either.

9 years ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 0

Want to know about because I'd care and not want to hurt her or have it weighing on her because she felt she couldn't tell me. If your..

9 years ago | Likes 11 Dislikes 0

Bf really cares about you, he'd want you to share that information with him.

9 years ago | Likes 9 Dislikes 0

Imo This is info that doesn't need to be given to a possible ex. If you believe in marriage, I'd tell him after he proposes. PT1:

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 1

PT2 It's what my wife did. Basically I proposed, we celebrated, spoke about serious things the day after (like this), then public announcmnt

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 1

This is just as much about your readiness to share as much as his willingness to receive. I imagine I we were in your BF's shoes, most of 1/

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Us would respond with nothing but love, care, and understanding, but tell him when you feel ready to. Wishing you the best

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

I just want you to know the fact that you didn't kill the kid, even though it was six months in, makes you the real hero. Thank you!

9 years ago | Likes 7 Dislikes 10

This comment is gross and unnecessary.

9 years ago | Likes 9 Dislikes 3

How?

9 years ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 4

Tell him when you're ready, if my girlfriend waited a while to tell me something like that I'd understand.

9 years ago | Likes 966 Dislikes 10

Sage advice.

9 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 1

True!

9 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

100%

9 years ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 0

And if you're only ready to tell about one or the other but not both (rape or child), that's fine too.

9 years ago | Likes 7 Dislikes 0

No. A year is far too much time. A few months in when it is serious is when it is time to divulge important information like this.

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 4

I was 48 when my mom told me about my older sister she had in the same circumstance. I was not mad at her and neither was my brother.

5 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

It took my ex two years to feel comfortable opening up about the serious stuff. Time helps.

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Agreed.

9 years ago | Likes 5 Dislikes 0

Very true, and if he has an issue with it then fuck him! But not literally, just figuratively, ya know?

9 years ago | Likes 40 Dislikes 2

Ye, keep literal part to the case where he understands.

9 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

9 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

@BaconSword has some good words.

9 years ago | Likes 91 Dislikes 1

The best words.

9 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

I feel like we would have a connection.

9 years ago | Likes 9 Dislikes 0

Ummm baconsword

9 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

His username is already a good word

9 years ago | Likes 14 Dislikes 0

My ex was raped multiple times by a guy before me. She told me right away but looking back i think i would of been better for her to wait

9 years ago | Likes 6 Dislikes 0

Because after she told me it just wasn't the same. It felt like she wasn't the person i originally dated. I think she rushed herself to tell

9 years ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 1

Me and it was too soon to much for her.

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Me and it was too soon to much for her. So take your time :) its worth it

9 years ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 0

I don't think too much time has past. I would tell him before you got married if you ever did. Maybe seek counseling on it?

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

I saw a counselor right after it happened. The thing is, so much time has passed that it feels like another life. I suppose that is why 1/2

9 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

I am a bit hesitant saying something. That person isn't who I am anymore. Its more that if he finds out he might start treating me different

9 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

I have been through similar situation. The one guy who didn't treat me differently is my now husband. And it's cause I waited to tell him.

9 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

I am glad I told him. Good luck with what ever you decide.

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

Thank you for your support.

9 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0