thecoloradokidwasalreadytaken
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A while ago, I moved to a new city to try to start my career. I did some unpaid internships even though I couldn't afford to, but I really wanted to make it work. After holding out as long as I could, I'm flat broke and my career has gotten no where. So after 6 years of being on my own, I'm moving back into my mom's house. I worked 70-80 hours a week just to save enough money to move out here and go for it, and I've failed.
Today, I sold my first guitar for gas money and I cried.
All through college, I slept on an air mattress because I had no money for furniture, but last year I finally bought myself a real bed and even a desk and it made me so happy! I've had them for less than a year and just sold them for a measly $100.
I've never felt so defeated. Sorry for the sob story, I know no one will see it and no one cares. I just needed to vent.
EDIT:
Thanks guys - My friends and family have been very supportive and I've cried to them enough, so I wanted to vent to strangers. I'm actually excited to go home, and I'm lucky to have that. I actually like my life quite a bit. It's just been a rough year and I can't help feeling a little down. So thanks for listening.
Coopernius
Been there. Had to sell my microwave and mini fridge for gas money once, lived off cold canned ravioli for a hot minute.
SatanBakes
You tried &that's what counts. If you were anywhere near me I'd make you some consolation cupcakes. You'll get back out there.
IsTheWinkImplied
Chin up, OP! Just a road bump that will lead you someplace else. Maybe where you started, not necessarily where you'll stay. Good luck.
PotatoThunder
Aw, I'm sorry it didn't work out, buddy. I hope it turns around for ya soon.
Ticklemepink14
mawmac
You tried and learned a helluva lot about yourself and what you are able to do. Though it does not seem like it now, it will serve you well
scroggs
You have so much more than a lot of lazy pieces of shit out there. You did it, sure it didn't work but you did it. That is so invaluable.
melrose
I care and I'm sorry. Air hug!
bolharr2250
Someone cares. Hope you're career takes off man
Pigsknuckle
+1 for effort
whateverisavailableokay
Look on the bright side, alteast you have a house to fall back to and start again. You're not on the streets.
Luffymcfly
@op I don't know what to say to be honest, but learn from your mistakes and hopefully everythings turns out well for you in the future.
thecoloradokidwasalreadytaken
thanks. i'll do my best...
Smoogins
Remember that sometimes its not that you fell off the horse that was the problem,its because you need a new saddle.
artsystuff
People often fail because they're obsessive and too picky. If you like music, I'm sure you can find a job in that field. Don't give up.
BananaStairway
How much did you sell your guitar for?
LiveL33t
"Perseverance is failing 19 times and succeeding the 20th." - Julie Andrews ...smart chick that Mary Poppins.. keep going...
sureasyourebornyourenevergoingtoseenounicorn
find a job in your field at your mom's house? Build up experience (you've got some from internship) then have a job before you move again.
UptightCargo
Know what you need, OP? BACON PANCAKES
Gunsling3r
What's your field @OP?
BoondockSaintsFan
What career were you trying?
SnarkyScience
Interpretive underwater basket weaving feminist dance theory.
NZSheeps
POTUS - OP is Hillary
aDefenseless9yearOldGirl
Man, I've been there. You bounce back. I know it sucks, but you aren't going to be back home for good. You have a winner mindset
whoeveryoulike
your resume has to be rockers tho.
iliketosayBURN
You have t failed, you are part of a system who who failed you
KailaWithAnI
'It'll all work out in the end. And if things haven't worked out, it's not the end.' Moved 1k miles after college. This quote saved me.
thecoloradokidwasalreadytaken
thanks =)
DynamicMenace
From your username, is it back to Colorado? What industry do you work in?
iwishiwereclever
Where were you? Where are you going @op? I did this exact thing last year, I'd love to help if I can
csierchio
You'll get through it. I've had this happen to me twice. I had to sell a gift from my dad so I could have enough money to get back home, 1/2
csierchio
And I've always felt guilty about it. You'll figure it out
rogera1994
Hey next time get a second job, like bartending a few nights a week to help keep up with what you need. Also find a roommate right away. 1/2
rogera1994
2/2 also don't give up. Try again
thecoloradokidwasalreadytaken
i have 3 roommates, and still working 70 hours a week. interned on my days off. =/
thecoloradokidwasalreadytaken
I don't mean to complain, I just mean it's tough. my student loans are through the roof... but i'll figure something out. thanks =)
jetzullo
But you went out there and did it, as opposed to moving right back home without the effort. That is something. I hope you will try again
TheSublimelyMagnificentJechtUsernameMarkIII
Why do we fall Master Wayne?
DestinyNerd
So we can get back up higher than before
teoskenes
That scene always makes me tear up
XanderCross33
I'm curious what your career was if I may ask.
thecoloradokidwasalreadytaken
animation
ReySkywalker9492
My cousin had a hard time getting into that too. Now he designs animations for slot machines. Not glamorous but maybe something to check out
XanderCross33
Have you thought/tried doing your own thing and putting it on YouTube? Sorry. Probably stupid question.
Woodmn
Assuming he can get together enough money for the hardware/software required, then started actively making animations he could get >>>
Woodmn
<<< at least some money flowing. Enough subscribers/dedicated followers and he could even do a patron and make extra on the side.
LZYRMN
Unpaid internships should be illegal. So many companies abuse that and it's unfair.
FelisaeNoctis
Pretty much this. You're often told to do things that aren't technically allowed, but can't complain without jeopardizing your career. BS.
LittleAnnieAdderall
Same with student teaching
jtb1313
Student teaching? What is so bad about it?
LittleAnnieAdderall
I don't get paid and I'm working as a teacher
jtb1313
I thought that they did get paid
sleepysnarlysnorlax
It's usually right before you graduate. My last semester was as a student teacher and my mentor got a free semester of tuition for taking-