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Nov 16, 2017 5:06 AM
Luthoratemybaby
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Starrkprimera
Happy I'm not the only one.
birchbox
I am most definitely in the same boat. I was in a car accident a couple weeks back and my first thought was oh well I had a good run.
Balisaurus
Christ on a cracker, we're all broken inside, aren't we?
CamelSpotter
The only thing I'm afraid of when dying unexpectedly is that I didn't destroy all of my porn first.
Greyfith
Same, OP, same.
SFMGifs
So we aren’t alone?
AtsaMattaForYou
MustaKyyhky
Hopefully it gets better for all of us, the depressed individuals. I'm in a slump aswell and would prefer not to feel anything at all.
MustaKyyhky
Todays one of those days (changed meds 2wk ago), where I feel like me being here won't matter to anyone. I'd like to turn off those feelings
IAmJackReacher
I've attempted suicide 4 times now, and I'm still unhappy. Everything is weird.
OldAceMerrillUsesDynamite
I remember when I was so tired I hoped a car would hit me so I could sleep at the hospital.
gingerlover43015
Everyday going to work I'm hoping a car will swerve in front of me.
OrionRed
Jesus...the comments on this post.
mdperes4
Was thinking the same thing. Thought it was just me.
OrionRed
I'm almost motivated to do some sort of group therapy here! The catharsis is heartbreaking. Sounds like a lot of people in the same boat.
BloodyGarbage
That's a pretty long winded way to describe being an adult
voulge
I feel like this mindset is not necessary to being an adult. One can be fully independent and not be passively suicidal.
GnTforUandMe
This isn't uncommon.
BellaCose
Just because you aren't suicidal doesn't necessarily mean you really want to live.
flaminggiraffe
This is termed a "passive death wish" in the psychiatric field. Very weird spot I've been in myself.
RandomImgurian
Same tbh. I used to be terrified of death, and I'd think no matter how bad things would get at least that would keep me from killing myself,
RandomImgurian
but now I seem to have somehow lost that fear and that kinda scares me.
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
Try to get some help! Even if it helps a little bit it'll be worth it.
IdUpvoteYouButYoureAt69
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
adptedturtle
This is literally the reason I'm scrolling imgur right now
iluvbunbuns
Ha, me too.
hippyg0th
yo same
Thorthewonderdog
I've been that way since I was like 11. I'm 26 now.
iluvbunbuns
Since I was 12, am 39 now.
Ramenburrito
Those that fear death have never seen the beauty of life, while those that welcome death have seen enough of its tragedies.
KyrosXIII
I hear ya bro. I'm at the same spot. Used to take the cab to work and would just think that if I was in an accident and died... that's ok.
KyrosXIII
Wouldn't actively kill myself though.
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
Has it improved now? If not, see if you can get some help. You shouldn't feel like that.
KyrosXIII
Yeah, it's my anxiety. It's gotten worse over the years & I just might seek help soon. I mean like professional medical help, not afterlife
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
I can't speak for you. But getting started with it was the hardest part for me, once you've done the first step it'll be easier. Good luck!
WigglyCherry
This is me but both ways. I want to kill myself but it would be nicer if someone did it for me. Cuz then people just thought I was ok 1/2
WigglyCherry
When I died. 2/2
Beagon
I've been in this spot and I must tell you: Find the thing that makes you feel like that. For me it was a toxic relationship where I didn't
Beagon
Feel like I was appreciated. I sought help at the doctor which didn't help at all. But once I decided I was sick of it and broke up.
Beagon
The weight just fell off my shoulders and I've never been happier.
PhailRaptor
Sadly not everyone is able to do something about what's keeping them there. Source -- financially trapped in my parents basement by ->
PhailRaptor
-> cost of living. The overbearing kind of parents that start an argument with you if you do anything even slightly unexpected. Even ->
PhailRaptor
-> though I'm 27 and have demonstrated on numerous occasions that I can manage just fine without their intervention. Can't change my ->
PhailRaptor
-> situation because I can't afford to get out from under their pressure.
SexDrugsBirdsandRocknRoll
Tried roommates? There are some cheaper options that won't make you feel awful all the time
wingnutie
I’ve been in the same place for awhile.
DrScudworthPhd
Me too.... Bleh
dracoblaze
There has to be a word or something for it. Been here for years.
wingnutie
Melancholy?
UsernameAttempted
I've been there for years. I have no prospects or hope for the future -I know its all pure shit-, but I just don't want to kill myself.
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
It might be hard, but see if you can get some help. You don't deserve to feel like that!
UsernameAttempted
Maybe I do. I might be a horrible person.
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
No way. Unless you did something that gets you in jail for a few years you didn't do something bad enough to feel like that.
UsernameAttempted
Your positivity is sickening. Go be happy to someone else.
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
Oh I'm sorry for trying to help a stranger out
gingerlover43015
I'm 30 and I feel ya, nothing really brings excitement anymore....
Coolbacca
Try adopting a wolverine or putting roman candles down your pants...actually do both and film the results.
AshleyTurner
Same
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
That's not supposed to happen. Try to get some help! Not being able to enjoy things is a big deal.
nowitsshowtime
Do you step out of your comfort zone?I sometimes feel lack of excitement,but when my SO forces me out of my zone I find the excitement again
nowitsshowtime
I think we get complacent.I also do high intensity things (ski, ice hockey, rock climb) but comfort is what holds back energy.
MyUsernameIsUpHere
Can recommend any extreme sport. Broke my back skydiving. Tried base instead. Lots of fun, very exciting. Still depressed though.
gordy77
See your doctor, try some exercise. Learn a new skill? It helps a little.
starkart
i feel you
Bioticism44
Felt this way not too long ago. Just wanted to be bedridden, didn't want to kill myself because that's selfish and hurt my family.
valkyrie117
Im at this point too
rachisawinner
I feel exactly the same way. I was angry at my brother for a long time because he died (overdose) and i knew i couldnt put my parents 1/2
FourByFourAnimalStyle
That is exactly how I feel. Exactly
FermentedCrabSmuggler
With all the amount of time dedicated to taking care of you while bedridden, it would be just as selfish of you to want that.
Bioticism44
Realized that I was basically commuting passive suicide by just waiting for my life to end. The thought freaked me out and I decided 1/2
22ndCenturyTransient
I wish it freaked me out. Instead I just really want it.
Bioticism44
To get a part time job. Made minimum wage but best decision I've made. Got off my ass and worked for sonething. Now I'm back at uni!
SharkyMcSnarkface
Back on track to years of debt I see.
Kockboi
Congratz :)
Virtika
I'm in this place now, and I know I should *want* to get better but I just feel empty. have a job though, it's the only thing that keeps me-
Virtika
feeling like I am accomplishing something. Yet I have no idea how to actually get "better", whatever that means.
Baguette2000
Do things for the others, if you have no clue for yourself. Or try to find something fulfilling to you.
lightningboltkid1
Learn things, get better at them. Get better friends (can always message random people like me) Eat better food. Get better sleep.
rachisawinner
Through that again. So messed up.
KittenCassie
We're here to talk if you ever want. I'm not afraid of death. I'm not crazy or depressed, but if death is coming, bring it on, motherfucker.
SjyiN
*grabs knife starts stabbing himself in eye* -"Bring it Bitch! "
987654321111
Exactly
BoredZeroG
We are dead. We go into battle to reclaim our lives.
SexDrugsBirdsandRocknRoll
For real. We know it's coming, why pretend like it isn't. Just try to enjoy the strange, strange time you have on this earth
Statistik3r
I've come to accept death. It's a natural occurrence for every living thing. I'm not going to dread over it. Live to be happy.
vowofloudness
But are you afraid to live forever?
Schabenbaron
ValstonLynch
I think an immortal would inevitably grow insane or detached from reality. Bearing that in mind, I'm quite alright with a countdown.
DJNinja
I'm the opposite. I would love to watch the progress of civilization and hopefully explore the universe.
SlightlyDankMemes
Just as long as it’s quick, is all I ask.
Idontneedrealfacts
and someone clears my browser history....
KittenCassie
Same here, but if it has to be slow and painful, the end result is the same, so I simply do not care.
Schabenbaron
Oh, you would, sweet summer child. Some suffer for years before they die. You don't want to go through that. I wish this nobody.
elephantpoe
I'm getting worse. I just saw a character in The Wire "kill himself" and after the initial sadness I thought "Could that work? Hmmm..."
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
Having messed up thoughts isn't always a bad thing. But if it's really making you feel bad you should see if you can get some help. Just in
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
case you need it.
elephantpoe
Haha, the thought was more like "I want to do that." And I would, but I'm broke and can't afford therapy and medication.
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
There are other things that can at least make it a little better. I'm not gonna act like I know anything about this, but talking to someone
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
helps, doesn't need to be a professional. Someone on the internet, someone you know, anyone that's willing to listen. Also, taking good care
StopStaringAtMyUserNameItsVeryShy
of yourself will massively improve your mood. Take a shower, go outside, clean your room and your clothes. If that's too much, take
MrLaCeD
OPs reaction in the face of death
Shirzen
Isometimesupvotereposts
LOVE ME LIKE YOU DO TTTTOUCH ME LIKE YOU DO
CommanderTau
I might have a joke running among one of my friends where our boss said "do you want to die" and we responded "tag me in coach i'm ready"
coololdguy
Who's this: for research purposes
DownvotesAreFun
Death is like the Spanish Inquisition, you never expect it.
TiGRIOSindustriesRnD
Well, there was that one group of kids...
purgethefilthyheretics
Everyone expects it, but the question is when
shmekie
Wow two JLH references in a day, seems like it's 1997 again
pareidoliaperson
Here comes the sauce addicts...
teh0khardic
Or
GameModeB
Vyrro
Slashinhobo
First though when i hear somebody say" what are youwaoting for?"
NorthmanoftheNorth
That person is probably havong a stronk. Call an ambalamps!
leadheadcaptainpresidentofthetautologyclub
CAN IT - when god gives you lemons you FIND A NEW GOD.
MyPowerLiesInMyBookshelf
MaverickTama
GODBERRY! KING OF THE JUICE!
leadheadcaptainpresidentofthetautologyclub
AWWWWWWWWWW YYYYEEEAAAAAAAHHH!
Luthoratemybaby
Dionysis or however you spell it. God of wine! Then God can give me grapes
wavinggrass
*busts threw wall* "Oh ya!"
ImTheDoctorNow
I prefer SHOCKLATE or RAWBERRY.
MaverickTama
MADE WITH LIGHTNING! REAL LIGHTNING!
DoYouWantAntsBecauseThatsHowYouGetAnts
Have you tried their new flavor? It now comes in Gun.
Justaweirdbitch
UNCOMFORTABLY ENERGETIC!
MaverickTama
YOULL BE SO FAST MOTHER NATURE WILL BE LIKE "SLOOOWWW DOWWWN" AND YOULL BE LIKE "FUCK YOU" AND KICK HER IN THE FACE WITH YOUR ENERGY LEGS!
thatdamnguy1
I’ve lived in that place for several years now. Hang in there. They tell me it’ll get better.
Frostworks
It DOES. You have to trust them. Took a leap of faith and so worth it to live again
JHawke
I'm not tired of life, but I do wonder.. how can you choose to trust someone? Either something has proven to be trustworthy or not (yet)
iluvbunbuns
It doesn't get better. I hear that too and those people who say they got better probably werent really all that sick in the first place.
SolKargin
I keep hearing that too
Sexlexic
Eh they've probably told the numerous homeless folks who die on the streets everyday. Few sympathetic words often dont help anything
SlightlyDankMemes
Constant low level existential dread is kinda just how life is, right? I’m also in that 20 year boat, @OP
onlyveganreplys
Same
hiphopbookshop
Aren't we just a lovely bunch of coconuts
Redisia
I second that, though I try to get out of it by voluntary work... to hopefully get on track again and find happiness/work....
gearsmith
Of course they do. Sadly, i've found out that humanity has a rather nasty innate talent for lies and self delusion.
gearsmith
After all, what is hope but lying to yourself that things will get better contrary to all the other evidence.
thatdamnguy1
This
HoukouUkage
Evidence provides the opposite to cynicism actually. The world has only gotten better despite how media has continued to make it look.
HoboTerry
"They"
pareidoliaperson
There is a video of a doc telling about a patient who wanted to and one he committed suicide. This made the doc look different at these 1
pareidoliaperson
Patients and is suggesting a respectful "way out". It's sad and condemn it, gor some there should be a way. 2
pareidoliaperson
Gor = but*
Luthoratemybaby
I'm 29 and they've been telling me that for 20 years
Daddysharkfinsoup
It'll be the same in another 20
Arean
me to!
Zags
28, and I’ve been there for 3 years now...
TheLogJam146
Been here for more than a year. But previously had suicidal thoughts so yay? You'll be fine, the world sucks and you're reacting properly.
poontache
This hits home. Ive been depressed for 10 and im 20 now
marsgoose
You doing anything about it or just waiting? If you are just waiting, you'll wait yourself to death.
TheConstellationOrion
Im 34. They tell me the same.
Lanka
30, and 20ish. Sadly meteors don't want to fall on me, no matter how much I wish so. :|
vanillamilfshake
I am 29. 2 kids. 1 husband. Decent job. By definition I'm an attractive person. What more could I want right? I don't want any of it. Idfk.
StephNugs
You need help, then. If you can't find appreciation for your own children, you won't be the parent they need. Get help for them.
eLeSDi
By definition huh.. Your own definition or your culture's definition? Sounds like you chase what your're suposed to chase
llucey
I feel you. Just turned 31 & I'm moment to moment. I feel very little. I have little hope that'll get any better than this.
ginniper
31 and I'm just learning how to deal with feeling my feelings instead of hoarding them somewhere in my brain. Do not like.
SomeRandomNobhead
You've been depressed since you was 9?
Luthoratemybaby
I attempted suicide in the 4th grade
HomosexualNecrophiliacMallard
*raises hand slowly* I pretty much have been.. maybe a little bit older. I don't know if OP is joking though.
Matrican
Same here. My psychologist says that I have probably had PTSD since I was 9. I am 23 now.
SomeRandomNobhead
I was too dumb to be depressed at 9 ffs.
bleblebla
Johnn kabbat zinn mindfulness through depression, i was in worse place than you and came to the same spot you're in now, maybe it'll be a 1.
bleblebla
Step up for you, but i know the feeling
eLeSDi
Have you tried tripping your balls of on mushrooms to change your perspective :)?
Skotias
I've done that before, and with acid. It works for a while, but once that motivation is gone, it's gone. Sadly shrooms are illegal and 1/2
Skotias
I'm too riddled with anxiety anymore. Plus, I have kids now that keep me going and I'd never want to jeopardize them.
Glassssssbook
What if it makes it worse though?
BaNaNaNaNaNaNaNaNaNaNaNaNaNaNaNaBATMAN
This. I need a trip every now and then to keep me sane, it sort of resets me and shows me all the things I hide from myself.
eLeSDi
Me 2 man
poontache
I did. Had a bad trip...
eLeSDi
Do it again.. Higher dose
SexDrugsBirdsandRocknRoll
How much did you take? Did you do it in a good environment with trustworthy people?
poontache
I think around 3-4 started good. And roomate decided it would be smart to bring up my depression