Sahrelli
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Last year I finally admitted to myself that I am a girl. I've always liked wearing girls clothes, especially dresses, but I never viewed myself as a girl. I always just kind of felt like a boy that doesn't follow gendernormitive clothing.
Over the last couple years, I grew more and more distressed and didn't really know why. One day I was watching porn and I thought, I wish I was her. Fuck, I instantly understood while I've been getting more and more agitated, I was jealous of all the pretty girls, not because I wanted to be with one, but because I wanted to be one.
I started HRT in November or December of last year and I've been Soo excited about the changes that have already occurred, but more for the changes to come. I have been slowly coming out to my friends and family, and have gotten some pretty supportive feedback from them.
2 months ago I started vocal therapy to help with understanding my voice and changing it to the voice I wish I had. I still have a long way to go but it has been amazing to work with a specialist in trans voice affirmation. I've been much more confident and am even more excited for what the rest of the year will hold.
The cute anime girl is who I want my online presence to be. I want to start streaming and the whole YouTube thing using her as my virtual avatar. I am still too shy about my voice to start, but I am hoping once I get enough money to get a live2d model of her, I will be confident in my voice.
TL,DR; I came out as trans female this year and can't wait for what the future holds.
quagma
hey, my egg cracked last year too! realized i was nonbinary, went on MTF HRT a few months later. it's a journey! so much happier tbh
Sahrelli
That's great. I already feel better just being able to dress how I want with confidence.
StarSumiaki
Congrats, lady! Here's to many years of being able to love yourself! (Let me know how vocal therapy goes. I might have to look into that.)
Sahrelli
It is going pretty amazingly. My insurance covers the expense too. I can honestly say I don't think I would have figured out half of what...
Sahrelli
...she has taught me, especially in the short time it's been. Once a week <1hr for 12 weeks. I still hate my voice, but it's gonna be better
StarSumiaki
Nice! (I suppose a pertinent question is what country you live in, because as a USian, I can't imagine my insurance covering that.)
Sahrelli
I know, I'm in the US also. It's weird that my insurance covered vocal therapy, but they won't pay for Trulicity... I hate our insurance
StarSumiaki
A fellow diabetic? Solidarity! I hate my insurance BS too... The stupid fights I've had for basic diabetic supplies....