Friendsshipsofconvienience.

I wish i had figured out that being alone was just more peaceful then forcing myself to socialize years ago.
I waisted so much of my life trying to connect with people. I can't think of one long term friendship that has endured. Not in any meaningful way.
A few years ago at a funeral for a highschool "friend" it kinda dawned on me. I looked around and realized not only did i no longer know any of these people i no longer wanted to know them.
And as for current friends? Well i really don't much see the need to continue reaching out and trying to connect. I am tired of the monosyllabal responses and daysand weeks of silence. It's simply a waste of time.
A person only has so much time on this earth and i am not wasting it on one sided friendships anymore.