bobsbigbuggers
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Depression destroyed me and my relationship. Have told some friends that I’m depressed most just scoff it off saying I’m not. Started seeing a therapist. Definitely not just sad. Sad doesn’t last 5 months. I want to feel better but it keeps creeping back up. I’m not eating right and have lost weight. Which isn’t good for me as I’m not a big guy and don’t need to loose it.
FetaForMoses
Just smile more
bobsbigbuggers
Thanks mansplaing too me dad. Lol
trashthecan
Exercise is helluva drug for depression
bobsbigbuggers
I’m trying. But being alone with my thoughts while running hasn’t helped much. I have wicked bad anxiety now too.
rkingesd365
Consider volunteering, I found a place a few months back that's shown me more acceptance and concern than I've seen in years prior.
rkingesd365
Did a lot for my self-esteem and depression, I'm not "good" yet but I do feel less depressed than when I started.
bobsbigbuggers
It’s really hard. Volunteering is a good idea. Especially cause I don’t see myself as a good person right now. My depression pushed away
bobsbigbuggers
Someone who loved me and I loved. I killed loved. Good people don’t kill love. So I feel like I’m a the villain of my story and not the hero
TheHelleri
bobsbigbuggers
I’m trying to put myself back out there.
TheHelleri
bobsbigbuggers
DamageAndJoy
I’ve been fighting it every day over 30 years & eventually it gets better. The right combo of therapy, medication & self care w/ support
bobsbigbuggers
It’s been a bitch to get a psychiatrist to see me. Most say the wait is months. But I’m struggling now. :/
DamageAndJoy
not sure where you got that information from on wait times. but it’s wrong. unless you’re in the US, canada, UK or australia
bobsbigbuggers
Good old USA health care!
dollabillyall
I know you’ve head this a THOUSAND times, but exercise really helps.
bobsbigbuggers
I’m trying. Going for runs but I hate being alone right now. Makes my head swim. I skateboard but it isn’t fun like it was.
dollabillyall
I’ve been where you are. Had to find the right meds first to be able to want to exercise. Together = awesomeness.
bobsbigbuggers
What meds?
KingCaesartheDefender
Ask your therapist for antidepressants. It will help the chemical imbalance that is keeping u down. Meds aren't the sole solution but help.
bobsbigbuggers
My therapist works in a non prescribing office. I don’t want to start over a whole new story with another but I may have to. I see them 2mrw
KingCaesartheDefender
I bet they can recommend something. You got this man. Your doing good.
bobsbigbuggers
I am trying last night was pretty hard. I just can’t stop beating myself up?
KingCaesartheDefender
You have some brain chemistry working against you. You are better than that. What's a good thing about you? Repeat that over and over if you
KingCaesartheDefender
Don't believe it. Keep telling yourself your good and worth it. It took me years to believe I'm a bamf. But I believe you are too. Your
inspiringandfunnyusernamecoolheh
Start somewhere, clean your room, work out, or just even get up and get a shower and dress well, just for you
bobsbigbuggers
A friend sent something similar. Make your bed. Start there.
scarscantstopme
That’s what someone told me and it truly does help. Make your bed every morning. It sounds silly but it’s a good start and stops you 1/
scarscantstopme
From crawling back into bed in the middle of the day 2/2
bobsbigbuggers
I think a lot can be said about that. It also shows that no matter how messy things can get you can always begin to pick them up. I’m trying
bobsbigbuggers
But it’s really hard. I feel I let a lot of people down. Most importantly me. Cause I really loved and wanted a family and everything.
GodofGodzilla
Try to shower and brush your teeth
bobsbigbuggers
I know. Hygiene is important.
GodofGodzilla
I usually forget that shit when I'm at my lowest ?
bobsbigbuggers
Ya. And cleaning my room, laundry, dishes, food etc. I’m a mess of a man.
inspiringandfunnyusernamecoolheh
when I was down, I made small stuff, small task, don't look on the large dark wall in front. Piece by piece you find thing done behind you 1
inspiringandfunnyusernamecoolheh
The dark wall does not change much, but if you take one brick at a time, you will see, that after a while, you put stuff behind you
bobsbigbuggers
I’m trying. It’s a marathon not a sprint.
inspiringandfunnyusernamecoolheh
You can build up from what you accomplished, I still see the wall, but I get stuff done too, it is not easy, step by step, but alot easier
bobsbigbuggers
That’s a good analogy.
bobsbigbuggers
So with my therapist here’s my thoughts on how it works. She’s painting a picture of my depression anxiety and my life. But she only has so
Naduk
get some sleeping meds, just for 1 week, get some vitimin D, have 1 Vit-D every morning, do 10 squats each day, add a few more each odd week
bobsbigbuggers
Saw my pcp got prescribed a sleep aid.
Naduk
do something nice for yourself, something thats truely just for you, an old hobby or a new one. get a new haircut or some small nice change
Naduk
use these tools to build up your pride & motivation, slowly build yourself up over time, dont expect to change everything over night
Naduk
its ok to be sad, be sad just let it out. because its ok for you to be happy too. feelings are just chemicals, ride them out, push for goals
bobsbigbuggers
I’m trying not to beat myself up. But we end up being our worst critic and not seeing the best in us. Part of why I shut down and ruined it.
Naduk
i know bud, been there, it takes time to feel comfortable with happiness, pride and self respect, work at it slowly, eventually its normal
bobsbigbuggers
I got a new Ukulele yesterday and went to the beach to play.
Naduk
thats awesome, i bet that felt great, keep doing things that inspire you and nothing will stop you
bobsbigbuggers
I’ve been thinking of doing Z quill just to sleep.
Naduk
just hop into a pharmacy, tell them your having trouble sleeping, they will sort you out, the vit-D is for energy retention through the day
Naduk
the combination lets you reset your sleep habits/cycle, you wont fix anything else without regularly getting a good nights rest regularly
bobsbigbuggers
I got ZZZQuil and melatonin today. And got calcium gummies and vitamin D gummies
Naduk
awesome bro, set a bed time alarm, use the meds not more than 2 weeks, you want to reset, not create a dependency, the vits a good for life
PetersPaincakes
Take a shower, brush your teeth, do something you can't fail at - and most importantly - don't identify with depression - it's not you
bobsbigbuggers
Im trying to make sure I define the depression and it doesn’t define me. It’s hard. I feel I was like this really happy to lucky guy this
bobsbigbuggers
Fun guy. But then there’s this event and a whole lot of old demons that were suppressed resurfaced. I feel like Robin Williams. Happy
bobsbigbuggers
Outside to people but really dark on the inside.
PetersPaincakes
It's strange that a complete stranger is able to describe what one thought as to be the most individual inner processes of oneself...
PetersPaincakes
...and there you are - hang in there - you're not alone. Recognize your sadness as a warningsystem... Ignoring it will drive you deeper