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It sucks even worse when you watch it eat away at someone you love until there is nothing left of them.
I wish he’d had more time with us. I wish I could still ask him the many questions I always have about life, his experiences, and get his advice. I wish he could still tease mom (who is, very possibly, a literal angel) and we could all laugh at the absurdity of it because he was the rascal, never her. I wish I could continue to put effort into our relationship as it wasn’t always great.
And, in spite of the loss, I’m thankful for the time we did have to do all those things.
Some of this things I set up in his old office after he passed.
Obituary picture. The funeral home wasn’t a fan, but we knew Dad would’ve approved. Ordinary was never his style. :)
I miss you, Dad.
Namorath9
But what is grief, if not love persevering?”
eliment12
Feel your pain I lost too many family and friends from it. Last one was a close friend in December.
Crimx42
Duck Cancer
FriedBoiledEgg
SNBDE9K
Fuck cancer. It's always an asshole. Sorry for your loss, OP.
playingwithknives
It is an asshole!
Jordan7831
Sorry for your loss op
playingwithknives
After a couple of years, people tend to forget that we’re still mourning and it feels much more lonely, so I appreciate your kind words!
JamesTotally
I'm sorry for your loss. I'm going though that now with my father in hospice. It's overwhelming in a bad way. :(
soveryverysad
Dude I’m so sorry.
playingwithknives
Yes it is. We chose to do hospice at the end too. I’m so very sorry. Please know you can DM me anytime for support if you would like. Truly.
irwelder81101
I feel your pain . Lost my mom 10 years ago. It slowly gets easier. But its always there.
playingwithknives
Yeah, it doesn’t go away, but we become more able to live while carrying it.
lurkerthatoccationallywantstocomment
My dad passed in 2002, I'm not sure you ever get over it. I still have dreams that he's in. Just hang tight to the good memories
playingwithknives
Thanks, and I am. I think you’re right about it always hurting. We don’t get to just “heal”, but we do learn how to keep living.
soveryverysad
Lost my sister 2 years ago. She was so sick she couldn’t make it to my wedding. Your dad looks like a wicked cool dude. Sending hugs.
playingwithknives
He was, thanks! Missing your wedding must’ve sucked for you both. Damn. I really, really do hate cancer.
flefla
Sorry for your loss, it sucks, you eventually learn to live with it, there are good days and bad days, keep your head up
playingwithknives
Thanks. I’m trying to hold the hurt in a healthy way…
flefla
Let it out,there is no healthy way to hold it in
playingwithknives
Oh, I don’t mean hold it in, I mean carry it. It’s part of me, so I’m doing my best to deal with it in a healthy way.
thevortexmaster
I feel you OP. Sorry for your loss. Cancer took my dad 3 years ago on my bloody birthday.
playingwithknives
Oh god, I’m sorry. Mine passes one month to the day before my brother’s birthday and 6 weeks before mine.
thevortexmaster
No worries. It's just the icing on the shit cake eh! hahaha best I can do is laugh. Easier than hurting for me
playingwithknives
I definitely understand that.
thevortexmaster
Well I hope my weird comment brought you some happy hahaha cheers
playingwithknives
The ability to laugh at the irony is uplifting. I hope you’re able to face the pain as well, but people need a break from pain too.
LogicDude
I lost my Mom to cancer in 2009 and my Dad to it last Summer. The pain from the loss never goes away, but the good memories overcome it.
playingwithknives
I’m sorry. I think you’re right. The pain never “heals”, but we learn o love with it. And we can chose to remember the good.
LogicDude
We just laid my Dad to rest in Arlington in April; 10 months after he passed due to a pandemic back-up in burials. I agonized over his 1/?
LogicDude
passing until then, but once he was "at rest" & reunited with my Mom (same gravesite) it helped. It still hurts missing them though & I 2/?
playingwithknives
Oh god, that wait would have been horrid! We were able to lay my Dad next to his mom who passed when he was 11. I understand the comfort.
LogicDude
seriously wish for just ONE more phone call, one more conversation, one more hug. My Dad was a rascal like yours, & I'm sure they've 3/?
LogicDude
already met up & shared some laughs. I get my sense of humor from both my folks, & if yours is from your Dad then what a gift you have! 4/?
1potsie
Cant dwell on the negative remember the positive heart took my mom at 71 cancer took my dad at 79 suicide took my son at 28 living full life
1potsie
People are born people die
playingwithknives
We really have to remember the positives. It doesnt remove the pain, though. I’m very sorry for your losses. I lost a grandma 2 years (1)
playingwithknives
before Dad; an uncle to a 4-wheel accident shortly after Dad, a brother (30) a few months after that to a plane crash, and (2)
playingwithknives
another Aunt (45) just over a year ago to cancer. And Covid took even more.