Not gonna lie.... Really nervous at this point....

I've had poor health for a while and finally decided to get serious about tackling it. Found a new Primary Medical Provider, and made an appointment for "new patient intake" for Sept 28th(soonest they had available). This past month, I was in urgent care/emergency room 4-5 times for various issues while waiting for this appointment. I was able to get my appointment moved up to Aug 30th.

Decided that I should be seen ASAP, so I switched my PMP to a different clinic that already had me in their system to get specialist referrals sooner(had open appointment within a week).

Wrote all my symptoms down and family history to bring in a physical list for the appointment. Here's kinda how it went:

Dr: So what brings you in today?
Me: *hands list*
Dr: Hey! A list! I love lists!
(Doctor starts reading list)
Me: ...
(Doctor's face starts going pale)
(Doctor flips paper over)
Dr: Is ... Is this Calculus?
Me: Oh, yeah. It's probably my husband's homework. I just grabbed what was sitting around.
(Hands Doctor "suspect list")
Me: These are a few things that line up with the symptoms.
(Doctor's face goes even more pale as he nods)

We agreed that my suspect list was about right, and were looking for where to start. He needed to excuse himself for several minutes, apologizing when he came back saying he needed to "decompress." I heard him through the door mentioning something about him having a family member go through something that was similar, but couldn't hear much else.

I hope I didn't break him.... He was fairly young, and I think he was new to the clinic.

Just.... When your symptoms get your medical provider concerned to the point of being shaken up, it tends to not be a good sign.

Now, before I get lectured about "don't google your symptoms," I recognize that I am not a doctor. On the other side of that, you don't need to be a mechanic to know that SOMETHING is wrong with your car. You'll likely need a mechanic to identify WHAT is wrong with your car, but if the symptoms are prominent enough, you can tell that something's off.

Symptoms:
Female, 5'4", 260 Lbs
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Joint PainLow MPV
Chronic Low-Grade Fever
Rashes
-Butterfly Rash
-Open Sores
-"Ringworm" that isn't ringworm
Fatigue
Rapid Resting Pulse
Not menstruating (18 months, not pregnant)Lactation from one breast(never been pregnant)
Clotting problems
Memory Problems
Can't lose weight
Blind spots and distortion in central vision
Ear infections and hearing problems
Migraines
Trouble sleeping
Depression and Irritability
Dry mouth/eyes/genitals
Strong Metallic Taste
Overheating hands and feet to point of discomfort/pain
Hand numbness
Tonsil Stones
Acid Reflux

Family history
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Autoimmune (Sister and Father)
Diabetes (both grandmothers)
Depression (Father, sister, aunt)
Chronic skin rash (Father)
Skin cancer (Aunt)
Hypothyroid (Sister and Mother)

Suspect list
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Autoimmune
Pituitary Tumor
Bone marrow disorder
HypothyroidPCOS w/Breast tumor

Mostly venting... Thanks for being the void in which I can scream. Stay safe.