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Jan 1, 2020 1:02 PM
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slyvic
Do you mean to tell me there are people who live without suicidal thoughts?
rivercity60
This year was the closet I’ve ever come to my last. Glad I hung in there. Thanks for the reminder
SaRAWWWW
I'm very glad you're here ❤ If you ever want to talk to me, you can
ForgivingCat
Thanks.
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DoctorGalifrey
Thanks op.
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yamatto
as someone who has had them, i'm not glad to still be here. if i could go without it hurting i would. good luck to everyone else though.
SaRAWWWW
I'm sorry you feel this way. If you want to talk to me, you can
Theregoesthebootthatswallowedmysoul
Thanks
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Sionas
I'm glad people didnt kill themselves but posts like these come off as trite and disingenuous
SaRAWWWW
I'm genuine, even if you don't believe it
itslikeadisco
I’m not but thanks
SaRAWWWW
If you want to talk to me, you can
Fluvial
Thanks OP. I'm checking into a psychiatric inpatient facility tomorrow. 2020 is the year I conquer my head.
SaRAWWWW
Good for you! I'm glad that you're trying to look after yourself! It's not easy. I need to book in some therapy, nyself. Good luck ❤
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
Good luck! That's a brave move and I wish you the best. Here's to conquering our brains!
OogieBoogieSong
Thanks
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letszeppelin
Thank you. One day at the time.
SaRAWWWW
Exactly. ?
SideShowRahim
Thank you. That was me many times. Ended the year great and got some help and support.
shan92
How? Might be helpful to know how you found help and support :)
SideShowRahim
Hard to summarize, but recognizing my self worth and being able to separate myself emotionally from toxic behaviors in loved ones.
SaRAWWWW
I'm so glad that you sought help. Well done ❤
quackerhammer
Its been hard.i have given up so many times.but idk something inside me just doesnt want to fully give up yet, and i fear the day that it do
SaRAWWWW
I'm sorry you feel that way. If you want to talk to me, you can
USMCKCCO
Dont ever give up. You still have allot of motherfuckers to prove wrong
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
I've been there. For me, it's fear of missing out. Yes 99% of my life could be misery, but what about those little magical moments?
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
Like finding a wood thrush and listening to its ethereal song as the sun sets, on the edge of a field covered in fireflies...
PaleEarnhardt
It fucking sucks, me and the voice inside my head don't get along very often
SaRAWWWW
I'm sorry you feel that way. If you want to talk to me, you can
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
Idk if this will help you, but it did me. Give that voice a name, make it not part of you, fight it. Make fun of it. Whatever works.
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
Was advice from my old therapist and has helped me fight those voices.
grinnaux
In my darkest hours I remind myself: who would feed my cats?
SaRAWWWW
I always thought about my dogs, when I waa suicidal. It helped
Elnauriel
My cats have saved my life more than once because of that exact thought. Glad you're still with us because of them.
DarrenGreen
I'm not, but I appreciate it. I'm basically still here to not hurt my friends and family.
SaRAWWWW
I'm sorry you feel that way. If you want to talk to me, you can
DarrenGreen
That's very kind, but I think I just did. I just lose it sometimes; I'm feeling better now.
DarrenGreen
And yes, I know how lucky I am to have them. I'm just shit. I don't properly appreciate the massive blessings they are because I'm shit.
AlliNWhenPlaying
I really hate those karma farm nonsense posts. You being glad is the least of the concerns of someone who struggles to go on.
SaRAWWWW
I'm sorry you hate it. This post helped me. I was suicidal this year. That's why I shared it.
AlliNWhenPlaying
Your own post helped you or you are reposting it to help others? Because this post didn't help anyone. Why? Ok I'll tell you. If you are 1/2
AlliNWhenPlaying
really thinking of ending your life either people around you help or you pull yourself up. Not an anon fucking post on social media site.
AlliNWhenPlaying
This is some "oh drama I feel like dying" type of being suicidal you are talking about, then yeah, circlejerks help.
Mermaidgirl916
Got to say I'm struggling more than I thought right now.
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
Sorry to hear that. Don't be afraid to ask for help, in person or just talking to people here.
Mermaidgirl916
Thank you. I'm trying to get the help I need. Just feeling a burden to those I care for right now.
SaRAWWWW
I know what you mean. I'm sorry you feel that way. If you want to talk to me, you can
eriksarcasm
That makes one of us
Silverscales
+1
madmattz
Made it another year!
BottomShelfVodka
Another decade!
madmattz
Oh shit, I did. This is my fifth decade to live in lol
Trixie19310
Conquer 2020 too!
idonotthinkitownswhatyouthinkitowns
That's really sweet @OP. A great reminder for all.
SaRAWWWW
I think internet friends can be there for you when others can't sometimes...and that's pretty special ❤
idonotthinkitownswhatyouthinkitowns
If you're in need mate, I'm happy to be your friend on the internet :)
meemolade
This...I like this!
LordSalami
I'm feeling it super strong today. Seeing this just reminded me that I still have a long way to go. Trying to find my way.
SaRAWWWW
I'm sorry you feel that way. If you want to talk to me, you can
LordSalami
Honestly I'm feeling good for the first time in a while. It's like my day was meant to be positive after posting this.
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
Good luck Lord Salami. You got this.
LordSalami
Thanks swamp. First person to talk to me all day :)
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
Woah! First person to talk to you this decade! What an honor for a swamp person :D
LordSalami
Well they say swamp people make the best company!
nycterelis
While you and others might be glad I'm here, I am not.
SaRAWWWW
I'm sorry you feel this way
nycterelis
Don't be; I'm just a faceless stranger on the internet. I appreciate the sentiment though.
speakeasiez
Yeah, that's how it feels at the time. Been there a few times, myself. But really, it leaves more sadness than you know when you leave Earth
speakeasiez
Stay strong. There's always someone who will miss you, and remember that.
nycterelis
Living for the sake of someone not missing me is a poor life.
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speakeasiez
talk with someone. Seriously.
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speakeasiez
healthcare professionals?
nycterelis
Meaning is self imposed, though. The fact that nothing matters *doesn't matter*. You can fix it if you want
Nakiepanda
I'm a fucking horror. But thanks
theengineer2049
Directed by Steven king?
Nakiepanda
No. More a Tarantino mess lol
tanfin123fs9
I can respect every other horror that is willing to coexist. Myself included.
hipshopbutcanthap
Beat me too it!
Obsidian3
"I myself, am hell." Robert Lowell
fthelions
Honest question, aren't suicidal thoughts standard?
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
It depends. They're not rare, and there is the "call of the void" ex. on cliffs. But not constant or serious thoughts.
fthelions
I mean serious thoughts, like legitimately thinking out plans and options. Not always specific, but like a few times a week for sure.
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
What the other guy said. It may be good to seek help and address why you're having these thoughts.
fthelions
I might need to, I always assumed they were standard, nothing worth even mentioning
Elnauriel
There's a difference between passing thoughts and lingering ideation. It's natural to have dark thoughts. Healthy even. But remember you ...
Elnauriel
are defined by the actions you take, not just the thoughts you have. If the dark thoughts are troubling to you, consider meditation to ...
Elnauriel
help you better deal with them. I like this ad because it touches on this idea of dark thoughts. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L7u5N2MfTNU
SweetFatherOfSalt
At times, I just need someone to talk to, this site helps.
SaRAWWWW
I know what you mean. You can talk to me, if you want
unannouncedguest
well I'm not glad I'm here, but we are supposed to suck it up because someone else who's doing fine might feel a bit sad if we don't 1/2
unannouncedguest
they rather have us alive and miserable than released from the nightmare 2/2
jumpingcow13
Alive. YES. Miserable. No. Your statement says you care and implies they care. Hold onto this and keep fighting. It has kept me alive.
Aurovin
Right I can’t stand it.
thornmallow
Right? I've been thinking about this a lot lately.
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
Wish I could reduce your misery, but alas all I have are memes. Have some cute kittens.
unannouncedguest
Thanks! kitten always help
SaRAWWWW
It does feel that way, sometimes. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. You can talk to me, if you like
unannouncedguest
thanks but I wouldn't want to drop my negativity on you
ERockJewbacca
Those thoughts came in strong last night as I was alone for NYE (once again). Still around just to spite myself I guess :/
LilLoneRocket
you get used to that after some years
Shiaaaaaaaa
Same man you’re not alone
darthmocap
Same shirt, different day. Life is a bitch and then you keep living it.
RaynebowDeathtrap
Yo, thanks for sticking around
porpoiseoflife
I simply hate myself too much to let me die.
speakeasiez
We love you, and we're here for you. <3
SalvadorVango
You’ve got this! Happiness is out there, sometimes it just takes time to find.
KelKrist
I needed that today, thanks
lawlysmoke
Thank you for being here. Message me if you'd like to chat!
Yokidoki
Aww that's so sad :( I'm not sure where you live, but I'd invite you for next year! I've been there myself it sucks so bad ? (Netherlands)
ERockJewbacca
I'm in Delaware but currently going through the application process (again) for my German citizenship (due to some law passed back in 2013)
YourFriendWill
Same. But we are not alone in these things. So, good right? It's me n you man.
DemSumBigAssRidges
Eh, NYE is over-hyped. Half the bars I went to last night were closed/empty. The other half were people trying too hard to have fun.
WhereIsMitch
Super fucking alone after having what I thought was a very loving girlfriend for the last 8 years. It gets better though. A little at a time
SaRAWWWW
It does get better
NatchuralOne
Same here, friend. Let’s spite each other, shall we?
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
Sorry you feel like this. Keep up the fight, but rest when you need to. I'm glad you're here. May good things find you, friend.
puffsky
I NEVER had a new years kiss. Nooor a birthday kiss. And i m 33:)) i m laughing.. Of sadness
Sephon
So instead of/in addition to Secret Santa we need mini-Imgur Xmas gatherings. Preferably ones online, but local in-person could be-- (1)
Sephon
(2) cool, too. OR, hear me out. Hosting one or two Imgurians Airbnb style. I'm too lazy to work out the logistics. But I like the idea.
jrs5ive
I like this idea!!
SchuKadaj
Christmas and New Years. Literally the worst times to be alone...
EekumBokumEekumBokum
Unless you just don't care about those holidays
caboose969
For me it's thanks giving.
ERockJewbacca
Yea it is but I've done it before and somehow survived :P
SchuKadaj
Most often it goes right, but you can't be assured this will always be the case though.
BeForwardBeHonest
Was literally writing a note last night. Only thing that stopped me was being physically too tired to do anything afterwards
SaRAWWWW
I'm so glad you're still here. If you want to talk to me, you can
BeForwardBeHonest
Thanks for the downvote random person. This is why many people suffer in silence
RunsNakedThroughSwamps
Hope you are doing better friend. Don't let internet strangers make you lose hope--there is help and some people do care.
BeForwardBeHonest
Idk about better, but at least the thoughts have stopped for now. Thanks
Elnauriel
Writing can be cathartic. Maybe the process of your writing everything down helped a little. I know when I get close to the edge, ...
Elnauriel
if I can reach out to a friend to just get everything out in a rant, it helps reel me back in. I get random downvotes too. Some people suck.