Crying, need dog pics

Imgur, tonight's been rough. So I'm in college, and about 2 months ago, I met a guy and was going through some pretty deep depression. An event that he led and I participated in brought us together and we started talking. About a week in, we started hinting at going on a few dates, but spring break came and we were split for a week doing our own thing.

We came back from spring break and he said he didn't want to talk to me anymore. That was it, a small explanation about being at two different stages of life, whatever, and he was gone. I thought you know alright cool, he's got his life, I've got my life, we're not meant to be.

Well a couple of days ago, we got back into talking, and on that day, we got into a more physical relationship. I'm not talking frick fracking, but enough to uncover the feelings I'd tried to hide. And he knew this, he knew I liked him, he knew I'd been dealing with depression, and he knew I'd just gotten to a state where I could confidently look in the mirror and say I love myself. And he used that. He used me to get what he wanted, and I let him. I let him hurt me the first time, and I let him hurt me again.

I forgive people very easily because I know what it's like to hate yourself, I know what it's like to live everyday like its a battle, and I never want anyone to feel the pain I've felt. So I want to forgive him, and I want to forgive myself, but both may take time.

I'm not looking for upvotes, just wanted to vent to you guys because I see you guys as one of my families. I want to give advice to people about love, one of the scariest things in life. Don't use people. Just don't, it's really the worst thing you can do to someone. It makes them question their value, and it destroys whatever confidence they may have. It's a cowardly thing to do to play the emotions of someone you know has strong feelings for you.

And the flip side, if somebody hurts you, forgive them. We all make mistakes, and we all have done things we aren't proud of. The biggest thing you can do is look at that person, acknowledge what they did, and not be bitter. It's one thing to be mad, I have every right to be upset, but that doesn't mean I have to stay that way.

Goodnight guys, thanks for listening. Time to just cry and look at pictures of dogs.

Tl;dr don't use people; forgive people who hurt you. Love wins.

P.S. I love dogs, if you have dog pictures, I'll take them and cry in my corner