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If you're struggling, please, reach out for help.
One of my D&D compatriots died from suicide this week. It felt so out of the blue; none of us knew he was struggling. We have been playing online for over a year, and I know he was part of so many other campaigns before and concurrent.
He was never a super close friend, but we played and chatted every single week. He took notes during sessions, kept track of our party spoils, and a fun RPer to boot.
The Mysterious Gang, including the ever looming DM overhead.
His character, Selma. Grave Cleric, and often the impromptu tank. She almost got eaten far too many times.
Always there to lend a healing hand.
We loved getting art of our characters
Our "back burner" group (The Wild Mistfits) for when summer scheduling often meant the whole group couldn't meet, so we'd do siilly one-off fights. He played the elven Spellsword, leaping around and slashing at foes with grace and presicion.
It's hard to say goodbye. Still processing that I'll never hear his voice again...
His characters will always hold a place in our hearts and live on in our worlds.
Help is out there. If you're struggling, reach out to a friend at let them know, or call 800-273-8255 for 24hr help. You're loved, you're wanted, you're important.
tentaclefriendly
This is trauma for you as well. See a therapist about it.
nobodylikeskale
As someone just now looking for a therapist, it's extremely difficult to reach out for help. Just know that it's not your fault.
HyruleQueen
I'm so sorry for you loss @OP. I lost one of my party members the same way two years ago. If you ever need some to talk to, feel free to DM.
darkwing42101
Hugs!
VaultGirl69
My friend (also fellow DnD player) is in the hospital from a suicide attempt a few days ago. The pandemic is taking a toll. Please get jabbe
Jellyyy81
Sorry for your loss @op ?
themuttonisniceandlean
I'm so sorry.
twoamartist
IndigoLizard2
localsurfer
I just spent my morning looking for the body of a suspected suicide. You may think noone cares about you,but even after you're gone there is
localsurfer
someone out there trying to get you home.
liveitup1
My best friend killed himself in June. Not suspected at all. Still devestated.
BaronSpaghetti
One of my old buddies attempted it a year back. His kids found him in time. He’s better. Condolences @op
v3rtabreaker
My friends & family keep saying they are happy I’m around. I doubt them every single time. These posts make me think they aren’t lying. +1
thecomputerrepairguy1
My heart is breaking for your loss. So sorry.
djangojazz
God I hate seeing this shit. I'm so sorry ?
TheOldSchoolisBack
flaskfullofcoffee
I’m sorry, may they find peace in the next life
omnomnomivore2
@op I’m sorry for your loss. *dick move here* BUT- we try to say “died from suicide” bc it shifts the blame from person to mental illness
PalehornTea
I like that, never would have thought of it. Thank you <3
JenniferReneeDunson
So sorry for your loss
flatsixer
At 46, I've seen too many people take this path. It's invariably a mistake. Life has meaning in the worst of conditions.
DovvyDragon
How do you know it's a mistake?
FAroundFindOut
Plus who are they to judge another person’s suffering? What an asshat
Whatathingtosay
So sorry. You're loved, you're wanted, and you're important, too.
Whatathingtosay
Wow. Downvoters. Who vote.
PerpetualExhaustion
The impact it would have on those closest to me is probably about the only thing stopping me anymore. Just don’t see the point when our
PerpetualExhaustion
Whole society seems poised to collapse in a decade or two… if that. I don’t want to live through that hell.
PerpetualExhaustion
Sorry for your loss though @OP
Ryebread91
#2 is that Robin hood on the right?
PalehornTea
Haha that's my character: Gurak. Techincally an Aarakocra but DM let me go with wing-hands instead of the usual arms and wings.
df8199350
It’s rough. My gaming group had a recovered drug addict but he relapsed and got something laced with fentanyl without realizing it and OD’d.
df8199350
None of us knew he had a problem and we were all shocked. Sadly he was the glue player and the group dissolved. RIP BigMatt.
FromJupiter
@op I only lost one person but it happen when i was 18. I was the last one to see him online. Looking back i miss the sign. But i always +
FromJupiter
Just try to listen. I to a lot due to escapism and freedom it brings. It's glue that hold me together. New rp dm almost did it I pm him +
FromJupiter
That night cause he was quiet and didn't say goodnight when the game was over. But i only learn to after lossing our first player.
Mazzy94
My friend killed herself last week, and my cousin 2 months ago. It's not easy to bear. Just remember to watch over those around you.
SandAndLooney79
Jfc. I hope things improve. I hope they are both at peace. Take care.
PalehornTea
My condolences man. I certainly need to reach out to friends I haven't spoken to in a while and make sure everyone is doing alright.
Poteightos
What if they're not?
BlahBlahTurtle
Listen to them, and strongly recommend professional help.
Aathole
"None of us even knew he was struggling" OP. Im in tears right now because I hate that I know how you feel. A friend of mine, we will call->
PalehornTea
He lived many states away now, so we only talked during D&D games. We were always the first to join the Discord, so we'd always chat about>
PalehornTea
> our days and such. I wish I had been closer to him, personally. I wish things were different... but I know all we can do is keep moving on
Aathole
Take the lesson. If you feel that you have something you need to air out find someone to talk to. Dont be like your friend or my gone boy D
Aathole
Its wierd talking bout this shit. Ive been working on it for a while now anx still struggle. Just being open will help others come to you->
Aathole
Too. Then maybe to lro help. I finally got a pro to listen too. I hate it butnit helps. Got to schedule time for mental maintenance
Aathole
Him "D" did this same thing some years ago. D and I were not close in high school but followed the same Career after. We worked in frozen->
Aathole
Wastes to the mountains of Colombia together. Hell we even part time landscaped together when work was short. Macho friendship. Always ->
Aathole
There for each other, never talk about feelings. Stupid. Maybe if we had he would have told me before it was too late. Me or any of our crew
Aathole
But no. We all got a call one day and D was gone. He smiled and laughed and played. We parties and fought together. And he always made us ->
Aathole
Think he was happy. The guy with the joke. The goal. The conquest even. The story that had us in stitches ?. Then D was gone and he aint->