Don’t Walk Away Mad

Suicide prevention day was yesterday, so this is late, but whatever. I know the effects of suicide all too well. Over the course of my life I’ve lost a few pretty good friends and an Uncle to suicide and around 5 yrs ago I lost one of my BEST friends. I was there for him and tried to help him to very end, but sometimes it’s just not enough.
Even though it’s still hard to get through everyday and not think of him, and I miss him dearly, what really upsets me the most about it, is when people say the most ignorant and arrogant stuff like, “He took the ‘easy’way out” or “how could he do this to ME?”
First of all,there’s something seriously wrong with the world when human beings are killing themselves in droves. It is against every natural instinct we have as a living breathing organism, most will fight till their dying day to survive as long as they can, no matter what the circumstance.
So when somebody goes against that survival mechanism and actually kills them self, that means they were in so much pain that they felt that by murdering their very own person, that it would be the only way to make it stop.
In psychology they compare someone who kills themselves mental state, akin to being stuck in a burning skyscraper, in that they have a choice to burn slow and painfully or just jump out the window, and it has to be decided now. It can’t wait.
They’re not being selfish, if anything they are actually selfless. They aren’t, and can’t think of anyone else, except stopping the pain. That’s why they do it. If they did think of others they wouldn’t do it.
And to me that’s being selfish. “Why did they do that to ME?””How would they think it would make ME feel?” See the problem? It’s not about you, it’s about them. They’re dead, give them at least that little bit of last respect and don’t be mad at them. Just think about the good things they did.