I feel suicidal again. Here's a dump.

I did homework all day, so I started playing fortnite to relax.

I know, I know, it's a garbage game.

But I enjoy it.

I was building a castle in creative mode,

Then I asked my brother to join.

For context, I'm 14m, and he's 8m.

So we started playing a round with just each other.

Then my friend joined.

Normally I'd enjoy it.

But he destroyed me.

And normally I'd be fine with losing.

But for some reason, I started crying.

And I want to kill myself.

No clue why.

I think I have depression, as my dad and grandma both have it.

I'm not on medication,

And my mom and dad think it's just hormones.

They dont actually take it seriously.

I really hate that I have no reason to feel this way.

I have an awesome life.

My parents are awesome

My siblings are awesome,

And I have lots of stuff.

My life is perfect.

But I still want to kill myself

Anyway, thanks for listening to my rant.