RachaelSchmachell
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A few years ago I was diagnosed with severe clinical depression. I didn't know why I was so depressed but it took me to a dark place that I didn't know existed. I started cutting, stopped talking and interacting with people, and lost my will to live. In that dark place I reached out to my sister and asked for guidance. She told me to seek professional help and gave me this: A bright box.
On the top of this box was this poem she wrote for me.
Inside she put dozens of envelopes and small gifts all titled something like, "Open when you are in too much pain to get out of bed" or "Open if you can't remember how awesome you are."
This envelope was titled " Open when you need to feel loved." My niece and nephew are the loves of my life so this one especially helped.
This one, "Open if you need a dose of happy." A drawing from my niece.
I did get medical treatment and now feel like a new person but on my darkest days, the time and effort my sister put into this box made my world a little bit brighter.
I think she deserves some recognition for being such an incredible person.
Thank you for reading my story and to those of you who are struggling with depression, it might seem like there is no light at the end of the tunnel but I promise you there are reasons to wake up another day. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Don't be afraid to talk to people who love you. It gets better <3
FP Edit: Thank you all for the outpouring of support. I know it is customary to ask for something if you reach FP so please head over to my sister Sarah's profile @Belikeschwa and wish her a happy birthday! She is truly an amazing person and deserves some birthday love.
Thegodsofimgur
Your sister really seems like a wonderful person
cozmikkpope
This is beautiful! You have a wonderful sister
MichealSchmeichel
I had depression for over 8 years. Then my two nieces where born and I have been working hard to rebuild my life. Kids are great.
Rookthebaggins
You must be an incredible person for your sister to put in such effort.
AxlHeck
Glad you got the help you needed. What a great sister. She may have saved your life.
RachaelSchmachell
I don't know how I'd make it without her. She's the one who convinced me it's okay to get on meds. I was against it before.
SuperHir0
I didn't know I needed to cry this morning
RachaelSchmachell
Excellent username lol
RaeNorri
Im also Rachel and had a really rough day.Tell your sister thank you from me.This was perspective I needed.
MerToo
Serendipity! ♥
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floppypickle
You are blessed to have each other.
AshleyHatfield87
I find myself thinking about it much more often lately... I think I opened Pandora box. no one around me understands what depression is
OutlawsAndTigers
Well, here depression is pretty common.
JesusCondom
Family can be such an awesome thing. Glad you recovered @OP
PMMeYOURBoobsPlz
Your niece is a visionary! A horse wearing actual shoes, what a game changer! Really though, what an awesome idea. Your sister's awesome.
frenchcook
I have been struggling to reach out to a very depressed friend who is just pushing us all ( her friends) away. I think I might try this !
earthbndmissfit
I am lucky to also have an awesome sister like this. Her and I have been each others rock throughout the years. I'm glad you're better
RachaelSchmachell
We are lucky people. Sister's are truly a gift. I'm lucky enough to have 2 that I'm very close to. Sarah is really creative. Lisa is honest.
earthbndmissfit
And also I commiserate in the severe depression, I have bipolar disorder. My sister has always been there and knows how make me laugh
JeffGoldbum
What a wonderful sister for putting so much thought and effort and love into that gift for you. I think she loves you! ❤️
sourorphan2112
This made me feel so good reading it. What a great gift. I'm so glad you have someone who loves you and supports you so much. <3
AmITheOnlyWomanOnImgur
BEST. SISTER. EVER. That's how siblings should be!!
StalkerMagnet
This is actually a wonderful idea. Your sister is awesome.
moneypulator
Sisters in general are awesome!...I don't have sister.
hansolongdingdongtralala
Totally agree. Thanks for sharing OP!
PunchInTheDicker
Having come out the other side alive, the only thing that kept me going were my magnificent friends that saw the light in me.
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ialwaysupvotecows
That, and my sister and I don't really talk... :/
RachaelSchmachell
@Belikeschwa is truly the best. If it weren't for her unconditional love and support I don't know where I'd be right now.
Solivoid
It's a legit concept, really.Reminds me of a docu,in which people would write a letter to themselves, to confront 'em when they want to quit
DoctorDrowsy
What is "clinical" about a clinical depression?
elinveronicap
It's the nice way to say "severe" depression that's caused by your brain/soul being fucked up for no external reason.
DoctorDrowsy
Ok, thanks for clarifying :-)
Poteightos
And generally has been diagnosed.
MyVoice
I really want to thank you for sharing this. Both you & your sister are awesome!
WTFUnicorns
With depression there's not always an external reason for why it happens. Sometimes it happens bc your brain's not operating properly.
BooBear26973
Ive had someone do this for me and it really helped. You are loved!
LegitNESSLmT
Love your sister for this. It's great to see that you guys have a solid bond. Depression is Real &there's nothing like loving support system
erbiumyttriumytterbium
I've had clinical depression all my life. I was finally treated at age *40*. I'm now 64. No regrets. Every day has been a gift.
marsii
I wish I felt this love after my diagnosis. I'm left alone, which affirm my fears and hurts my mental health.
TheRelevancyOfMyNameIsRelativelyIrrelevant
i've found that people just make it worse. They want to help but don't know how, so they decide doing anything is better than nothing.
OutlawsAndTigers
You're here and you're not alone. People are pretty open here. Talk about your stuff if you want to.
GifAsInGiraffe
everyone's alone. It's dark and cold out here in the real world. People pretending otherwise make the realists think they're missing summin
TheRelevancyOfMyNameIsRelativelyIrrelevant
Trust me on this, i've worked on it for decades, it doesn't get any better, not for me at any rate, and I am tired of fighting it.
Bortus
Your sister is awesome, but this would make me feel worse. I hate being pitied, sympathized with or cared for. Anyone else?
OmikronWeapon
personally, I would have still been too depressed to try the box and hated myself for not appreciating the gesture
CatsandDnD
I hate being pitied too (the tone of voice & that look, ugh), but this box is something I could see my mom doing. We're pretty close so 1/
CatsandDnD
the box brings me positive feelings about it.
eyyfsdywsgjo
Can you please tell me what was inside "open if you want to eat your feelings"?
Danieljtah
If it was me, that would be gone in the first day.
Poteightos
Chocolate, one assumes.
AshleyHatfield87
I stopped cutting about 10 years ago, and a couple months ago, I did it again for the first time. I truly have hit rock bottom.
OmikronWeapon
There's no shame in stumbling every now and then. especially after having lasted so long the first time.
OmikronWeapon
You've already proved you CAN do it. Try again. You can do it.
blameitonmyyouth
Good on ye mate. I have Vaunagutts Depression. 90 day cycle day 91 I'm shit for ten days. Reach out some idiot here has your back. I do.
AlMagnum
I've never heard of this- would you mind telling me more? Sounds interesting and very familiar
blameitonmyyouth
It is just as it sounds, cycular depression. Google "Kurt Vonnegut".
Poteightos
So I tried to look this up on google and it only led me to this imgur post.
DOWNVOTEALLEMOJIS
Maybe he means Vonnegut?
blameitonmyyouth
I do. Spelling depresses me also.
BananaStairway
THIS IS AMAZING. I need one of these boxes :(
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BananaStairway
You are the sweetest!!
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BananaStairway
You made my day!!!
Tuushi
If u live postable area,i will send u some treats. Canadian ones. ????
BananaStairway
Yeah yeah!!! Some people are just so nice!!! Thank you!
Iwantfoodrightmeow
Sending luff (i mean love)
BananaStairway
You're the bees knees. Thank you!
Iwantfoodrightmeow
Anytime fam x