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My life was controled by anorexia...
In 2013, I was 90 pounds soaking wet, and I made sure I stayed that way. I lived on caffeine and cigarettes, ate maybe one meal a day, and rarely slept so I could fill waking hours with working out. By 2014 I ended up in a full time eating disorder clinic, I had quit smoking and cut all caffeine intake back to the bare minimum I needed for work and school.
This year I'm now officially 135 pounds which shows you exactly how underweight I was when I was at me worst. I quit modeling because it fed that demon and most photographers don't want the "average" model. Plus there's better things to do in life. Like eat good food and learn new things
RobbinthePeople
Wow, you look absolutely wonderful in the second pic. You're a beauty!
ohdeepthought
You look so much healthier :) and you have a fantastic glow X keep up the good work.
besttopkek
TheDogEnd
Yar, I was at me worst!
jeroen298
You look awesome, babes! Enjoy whatever the fuck you want to enjoy and screw the toxic ones that make you feel bad.
iHaveDoneNothingButTeleportBreadFor3Days
I prefer the first pic.
Shimobe
Well, I think you are a lovely young woman. Congratulations on breaking that cycle and finding a better level of sustainable health. :)
hatsofftothebull
You look stunning now! And you're healthier and happier. Win-win!
Tarnished1
YOUR opinion matters, don't let anyone else choose how YOU should feel.
NorfolkBoy
Just gotta say, that your 'average' person looks nothing like your second picture. Healthy is not the average anymore, and you're gorgeous.
CaptainDickSimmons
danny87
Wait, first picture is 90 pounds? I'm sorry but I'd imagine 90 pounds being a lot skinnier.
BattleCat7
Muscle weighs more than fat. And different people carry weight differently.
KimNeedsASnickers
Dear diary imgur, please feed me with some attention!
tadpole13
There's nothing wrong with sharing our experiences, this might be exactly what someone needed to see today
GozerDerZerstorer
To be honest, I still prefer the first one.
bexyrex
AYYY congrats on beating anorexia!! Been there. 93 lbs of misery. Then i took the bulimia triain. more misery. ED free for 2 yrs!
BattleCat7
Congrats my fellow survivor. <3
DonQuixotic
My gf's little sister had an eating disorder. From what she's said, it wasn't ever about her weight or image, it was all about the control
BattleCat7
Yup. 12 year battle stayed when I was 7 or 8, it wasn't always about food. Food is just the easiest thing to control.
Ubachef
You're doing a great job. Keep going!
JohnWickdidnothingwrong
At the risk of being creepy, #2 is breathtaking. I love it.
PrettyLittlePlatypusPony
That last pic...you look perfect.
boneshugsandirony
Can't tell a difference. Sorry.
lucky13kenny
The first picture looks better. Both pictures are of an attention whore.
boneshugsandirony
I like you.
insertsomethingwittyhere
I know this isn't what you want to hear, but you look fantastic. I myself have struggled with anorexia since I was a child in gymnastic (1)
insertsomethingwittyhere
I have recently started to go back into that cycle, and I am putting a stop to it. Good luck!!!
BattleCat7
Keep fighting girly
BattleCat7
I've struggled since I was in about 2nd grade. It's a life long battle, you've got it though. Keep fighting it. :)
Lesbriean
Being healthy is way better. I'm sorry for whatever you went through that lead you down that dark path, but I'm proud of you for overcoming.
FFKonoko
Looking great! Oooh, tattoo.
BattleCat7
Lucky number 7
FFKonoko
looked like it from what was visible. Nice! :D
AlanBansConfrontationalPeopleOnImgur
YOU DONT HAVE THE FACE STRUCTURE TO PULL OF SHORT HAIR, LET IT GROW LONG
ZeeBerry
Well arnt you just a little ray of sunshine!
BattleCat7
I happen to think I looked fantastic.
ZeeBerry
You do, I am rather jealous that your hair holds that colour so well.
BattleCat7
Thank you kindly
yamahog
I know yall mean well, but everyone commenting on looks isn't really getting it.
BattleCat7
Thank you!
yamahog
NP and thank you for sharing your progress <3 I'm in recovery for bulimia at the moment.
SunshinePrincessLuna
I hope you're doing well! I've been "recovered" for almost a year and it's so worth it!
BattleCat7
You can do it, not saying it's easy but it's worth it. <3
AlmostOrdinary
As a photographer, the "average" person is exactly who I want. Fuck society's ideal, true beauty lies in their "imperfection." Well done! :)
BattleCat7
I wish my area has more like you, I got phased out by the alt girls and the skinny tall gazelle girls
fatiscancer
you're either lying on your weight or you're very short
BattleCat7
I'm 5'5" and mostly muscle
fatiscancer
if it giggles it isnt
BattleCat7
Did you mean jiggle? Unflexed muscle jiggles. But I don't really care what you think since I know my health.
technetium99m
I'm a tall gazelle then...minus the skinny. Rock on girl x
TheGooseKnowsBest
Good job OP. People always want to pretend having to gain weight is laughable, but for those that struggle, it's so difficult. +1
BattleCat7
Getting yourself to see that you need to gain is the hardest part I think.
TheGooseKnowsBest
As a senior in high school, I was 5'7" and 98 lbs (as a guy too) due to appetite suppression from stimulants (adhd). I feel ya completely
BattleCat7
I hope you're doing better now as well
TheGooseKnowsBest
5 or 6 years later and 5'9" and 145lbs. Coming off stimulants made a world of a difference. The caffeine was probably the best change for ya
YouDontKnowMeIDontKnowMe
The..uh...lesbian in me (woman married to a man here) is definitely more attracted to the bottom picture here. You look great. Good job.
lostwynter
As an actual lesbian... actually it doesn't matter that I am. The bottom picture is still more attractive. You are stunning.
batlrar
And the lesbian in me loves the frosted side! (straight male here)
BattleCat7
I'll take this as a wonderful compliment then. ;)
Some0neSetUpUsTheBomb
I'm not a lesbian. I just like boobs. I am a simple man.
Sweatpantsboner
The lesbian in me is also attracted to the bottom picture of you (single male)
CaptainRakeHands
Just a quick question, do you know where is be able to get something similar to that corset-y looking doodad? It looks amazing - I love lace
JockoV
Minus the lesbian part, I wonder if imgur would find it creepy and pathetic if a married guy said the same thing. I'm thinking downvotes.
graspee
If you're not using the lesbian in you, can I borrow her. For purposes.
YouDontKnowMeIDontKnowMe
Yeah go for it she could use some attention.
graspee
In my mind I'm a girl with a straw hat and a ribbon giggling with your lesbian and enjoying a picnic in a sunny meadow.
AlanBansConfrontationalPeopleOnImgur
REALLY ? EVEN WITH THE TERRIBLE HAIR. BUT THEN AGAIN IVE SEEN LOADS OF LESBOS WITH SHORT HAIR
YouDontKnowMeIDontKnowMe
Her hair is cute AS FUCK so fuck off with that all caps comment nonsense.
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YouDontKnowMeIDontKnowMe
Eek I'm sorry you got downvoted for this. He knows how I feel, and actually HE encourages me to go have fun, but it wouldn't feel ok for me.
BattleCat7
People aren't allowed to think others are attractive when they're married?
Rognin
My ex thought it was ok to sleep with another woman, since I'm a man. So I "somewhat" sympathize with his point of view.
YouDontKnowMeIDontKnowMe
Your ex is a twat for that. I'm sorry.
BattleCat7
Looking and touching are different. Otherwise porn would be pointless for people in relationships
Rognin
Agreed, that doesn't mean someone isn't allowed doubts when you SO has physical attraction to the same sex as his/hers.
Carlox
Looking good. Any more pics?
BattleCat7
Not really of me healthy, there's a few though. /a/Q4MtS
Carlox
I saw those last night, very nice too. Maybe you should take new ones of healthy you.
BattleCat7
I'm planning on it, it does help my self esteem to see myself through others eyes
Carlox
That's great and glad it does. Hopefully, I won't miss them.
BaysideClassof93
This is beyond cringe worthy
CoatHanger
You didn't ask her to show you her butthole. What is going on? Are you sick?
Quest4Life
The last picture is absolutely stunning but in the first pic I never would have known you had anorexia. You look like the average teen girl.
NiceGreenArrows
Having overly skinny "coltish" legs can just happen for some teens due to growth spurts, but if they're like that constantly, it's bad.
Beelsebooob
And... this is the problem with today's "zomg, no fat" culture - dangerously underweight is *much worse* than overweight, and we praise it.
ToastedVanilla
Can confirm that praise is feeding my anorexia in a way. Also laziness.
boomslander
And dangerously overweight and dangerously overweight are both...dangerous. Thanks.
AlanBansConfrontationalPeopleOnImgur
REALLY ? EVEN WITH THE TERRIBLE HAIR
whatsyourspaghettipolicy
AlanBansConfrontationalPeopleOnImgur
LIKE IM GONNA GET FLIPPED OFF BY SOMEONE THAT DOESNT KNOW THE WORD SPA
whatsyourspaghettipolicy
What on earth are you talking about? Not spa. Spaghetti. SPAGHETTI
yamahog
The diagnostic criteria for anorexia nervosa doesn't involve a specific weight for a reason. (link in reply)
yamahog
http://www.allianceforeatingdisorders.com/portal/dsm-anorexia#.VlHd-PmrTIU
brokebackmountain
But it does include being at least 80% below the normal body weight for a person of your stature. Source: Former anorexic, DSM V
DGummibuns
And that's what makes it scary
Dwizzard121
Maybe that says a lot about how our teen age society thinks they should look.
KimTheGreat
Man I feel really thin now I've always been underweight and currently I'm at my highest weight ever: 95 pounds :(
wowTheUsernameWasAlreadyTaken
People are different. Some struggle to put on weight. I say don't worry if you eat well and are active. :)
DoctorDelta
If your weight is healthy, don't worry about it. If your weight is unhealthy, maybe ask a doctor what you can do about it.
BattleCat7
I was almost 20 though and still looked about 14 because of my size. Also, thank you.
Kleinstlebewesen
i feel you i`m 24 and nobody would think i have ano but it starts in the head
undercovercuntbitch
You look great. Very womanly curvy body=sexy. I was super tiny like that too weighing 105 and now I'm 135 and much healthier. Great job!
Rodvitner
Keep working out, but get sleep and it properly. Yoir body and psych will thank you for it.
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DrHankScorpio
Found the fucking idiot.
Johnnyjackandjim
What a piece of shit douche
washismycopilot
Everyone told me how great I looked when I was ~90lbs @ 22 but I could touch my spine from my stomach and reach into my chest cavity.
Ohnoaginger
What the fuck
buttermyarse
Good god. That's a horrid mental image.
LeadMeHome
I knew that pain, but being 8 and doing that creeped out so many adults.
washismycopilot
Sorry everyone. I was homeless at the time and essentially starving to death. :(
GnomeAndGarden
Thank you for the word "was"