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My son killed himself 2 and half years ago. A couple of weeks ago he would have been 20. I miss him so much and love him so much.
This is him with his best friend Sophie. Who still will wander the house at night and we think look for him.
AbrahamWithAWiffleballBat
I’ve considered it countless times and I just can’t put the feeling into words. it’s an awful awful feeling that I wouldn’t wish on anyone
synfinitehell
This hurts me on a whole new level. The dog still looking for him just topped it all. I'm so sorry OP. This post has me crying.
ladysmurfette
He had the same birthday as me. So sorry for your loss
m0nk3ym4n
I’m sorry for your loss.
RunAMuck1
Oh man. I'm so sorry. MY little brother and father both killed themselves. My heart goes out to you. <3
thatimgurfella
Sorry, OP
VeganArms
This is important. Thanks for remembering him somewhere everyone can see.
bj52398
I am so sorry for your loss.
Amar13579
I know this post is old and most wont se this but my little brother on the 17th of december shot himself he would have turned 20 on the 14th
IStabYouEgg
I read this and thought about my older brother. I’m sure he loved you very much.
BushiestCream
I’m sorry to hear what happened. As a son (17), just know that he loved you as much as you loved him.
MaynardIsOneSexyMF
That's sweet. I mean esp given your user name. No sarcasm I swear.
ChaosandChaos
Hey, have you ever taken a ride 6 inches at a time on MAYNARDS DIIIIIICCCCKK.... sorry
ProperWeirdo
I have 2 sons, the oldest is 4. This messes with me in a way I'm not comfortable with. Peace be with you OP
FutureRageComics
as a members of nr 1 top suicide country for few years now, i know this feeling ;\ depression is most underrated problem
IusallypoopwhileImonhere
I shed a tear for you friend. That’s to much for anyone to bear. I’m sorry this has fallen on your shoulders. Stay strong
RexHemlock
I'm sorry, @op.
ValleytotheSea
I have a 15 year old son. I have no words. What a terrible loss. I'm so sorry.
BearGoesBruh
Talk to him. Ask him about his self and let him know you love him every single time you see him walk by you in the living room. It helps.
BearGoesBruh
Even if he doesn’t act like he’s depressed or upset about stuff he might be, trust me we’re good at hiding it sometimes.
DahPrincess
As someone who's struggled with suicide, esp as a teen/young adult: let him know much he means to you. Let him know you got his back no >
DahPrincess
-matter what. Keep that lil sucker alive
EvilMonki
TacoBellBelly
He’s the same age as my little brother, I’m so sorry and now so sad thinking about not having him
LynchMeDaddy
Go spend time with him, man
TacoBellBelly
I do, I was such an asshole older brother growing up and I’ve managed to turn out relationship around and he’s one of my best friends now
Giant0tter
Sorry, OP.
AlchoTheStranger
My dad committed suicide when I was 16. I was in denial until I saw him one last time at his funeral. Im 22 now and its still unbelievable.
AlchoTheStranger
I wish you the best, OP. I can't imagine your feelings since I've never had a child, but Im sorry for your loss. Be safe.
ChrisCosmosBaroness
Sorry OP. I understand your pain. Buried my brother for the same reason three years ago. Would be 22 next week. Anniversaries are hard. :/
TheBestRussian
These threads are so sad to read. Many of us don’t realize how many lives are claimed by suicide, and how many more lives they affect :(
doesntgetmorearabthanthis
Last week was my brothers birthday... It's been 12 years... Would have turned 41 this year. Sucks seeing his kids grow up without him
IMissZach
@op - I’m sorry for you both. I’m coming up on 10 years since losing my son. Message me if you want to chat. Peace.
soapbubblesscareme
*hugs*
4goodsuccess365
I lost my daughter last year to cancer, tears are welling up right now as I write this. I know how painful it is, prayers and grace to you
IStabYouEgg
I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to find some peace. I’m gonna go and call my mum.
tags0
Great response. Sincerely.
IronstarGallifrey
I nearly killed myself two weeks ago. This helps make me happy I made it out of a coma and a potential grave.
DVSBSTrD
I hope it wasn't on purpose.
FuckYeahImAwesome
Vallanth
I'm glad you're still here.
DelicateMenstrualQueef
I'm glad you're still here, and I hope you're getting whatever you need to heal.
jackpotjoe
Keep it up the fight brother/sister! Whatever you need, chat me up!
IStabYouEgg
There’s a lot of support on this post, even if we’re all strangers. That doesn’t matter though - the sentiments are real. Chin up, love P
Communik8
So so sorry for your loss. My son is the light of my life and I can't imagine a world without him. My prayers are for you
QueenAmy
I've got one of my sons (the sad one who plays Zelda like @OP 'a son) snuggled next to me right now. I'm so lucky
mydrivec
I couldn’t say it any better
QUIBICUS
Same. . . . . .
likeadragon
I would have died a long time ago from suicide and mental illness if it weren't for my friends. I can understand how you feel op.
likeadragon
At that age I was ready to die anyday. I just didn't know what it would cause. I'm so @OP
soapbubblesscareme
*hugs*
SalmonTheMedic
I hope those feelings are all in the past for you, but if you ever find yourself needing an anon friend/medic, please message me. ~Gab x
soapbubblesscareme
*hugs*
SmallForeignFaction
I attempted suicide when I was 20, 2 years ago. I'm glad I didn't succeed. I'm sorry for your loss.
soapbubblesscareme
*hugs*
PunkyPumpkinTheCat
Hey man, never give up. JK,
ThatOneKid42
What?
SalmonTheMedic
I hope your recovery lasts forever and you never get those thoughts back. But if you ever find yourself in a dark place, please message me x
Vallanth
I'm glad you're still here.
Icryoncommand
My reason for doing it is no longer there. But I struggle to keep reasons at bay. If that makes sense?
Icryoncommand
I understand that it's selfish to "pass the pain on to loved ones" but at the end of the day, we all have a life to live and no one does it-
Icryoncommand
"FOR" us. Finding the good reasons is my new goal. Since I haven't been able to stop the bad.
ChaosandChaos
When I attempted, I still remember the feeling and the visual... It felt serene. And it was, for a moment, beautiful. Then it all went black
ChaosandChaos
Luckily I survived, and woke with the realization that it may get shitty... But you could never know how good it could get either. Just live
Silvermane
It's times like this that make me really glad I never went through with it. I can only imagine what my parents would have gone through.
soapbubblesscareme
*hugs* me too
SalmonTheMedic
Same to you Bubbles, please message me if you ever need to. Open invitation to anyone that reads this too. Look after yourself and others. x
Redisia
I know from a personal experience how harsh these thoughts can be. And hard to get rid off, personally I think we need to work to create a -
Redisia
problem never develops. Less bullying, better neighborhoods, less domestic violence, less isolating individuals.
Redisia
A tip i can give: TALK to your kids, when i had a ton of problems for years i was amazing at hiding it. I did not want to bother my family.
SalmonTheMedic
I hope you never get those feelings again, but please message me if you need to. I'm a medic and have personal experience in these matters.x
ineedacupcake
You are a good human, thank you.
SalmonTheMedic
Thanks, I've learned from good people
Silvermane
Thanks for the concerns but I'm in a better place now! Got my life around and all that. I wouldn't even think about it these days.
SalmonTheMedic
I'm very glad to hear it! Well done you, it's a massive thing to have beaten. All the best for the future, I hope it's full of happiness. :)
PaulyParker
Sorry for your loss. I fight my demons daily & knowing how it can hurt everyone stops me. Keep strong. We are all here for you.
kittythekat
I was having a bad night, and this post snapped me back to reality. Thank you for causing me to think about the people I'd leave behind
A2DY79
Wait until it's reused by the 'ThisTimeLastYear' bot.
JelloPutinPops
Those people who care about you thank YOU too.
HamWilly
This.
ICantReadBrail
IllBeDamnedifIGotoHell
When I was in the dark place, I had a list of 5 people I couldn’t do that to. Always remember your 5.
BushelBasket
Found this on random. Hope you are doing well ?
Schlissa
Same
Vallanth
Thanks for sticking around friend.
BryanEwald
Take it easy bud
Goonsprout
same, this could have been exactly me two and a half years ago, almost was even...
Happinessfarmer72
glad you didn't
Goonsprout
Thanks fam, me too
TheHawkRules
When you snapped back to reality, did you go “Oop, there goes gravity” because if not then that was a missed Eminem reference.
ArtsyNipples
Solving a temporary problem with a permanent solution is not the answer.
pauliexclusions
Thank you for caring. You keep fighting the good fight, ya hear?
LovelyandAwesome
Don't know you but, I love you. You. Are. LOVED. I know the pain, I've lived the darkness... you're not alone.
SumerianCry
I wish you all the best help you can get in your country.
serenalass86
You took the words right out of my mouth. Thank you.
MrMagoo76
Nights are the hardest.
MortimerMous3
My father suffers from depression and the attempts have been there. I now have a fear I didn’t have before, that I will also go down that1/2
MortimerMous3
Same path. That if the person that I’m so alike had the struggle and made the attempt, that maybe I’ll fall to the same darkness.
Headstereo
It will never get better for the people who will miss you and love you...
conflictedlurker
That's one of the main things that kept me from doing it, along with the fear of permanency. I couldn't do that to the few people who cared.
karlyan
Yeah let's guilt trip suicidal people...as if they don't have it bad enough already.
Happinessfarmer72
Don't think a guilt trip was anyone's plan. What should be done?
karlyan
Teach them (healthy) egoism.When something as basic as self preservation breaks down and the brain things suicide is ok, one needs to care..
karlyan
...oneself first and foremost...the whole love yourself before you can love others spiel.
Vaelrynn
It might sound stupid but look for the small and nice things. They might be small but there are more than you think hiding behind and
Vaelrynn
between the big bad moments. I have a lot of them since 1 1/2 years and they always keep me going. Maybe it helps you. Rock your life!
Vaelrynn
Also if you can get a dog or cat... they help a lot and give you an amazing reason to stay and so much love and joy in return.
ZachsAnomaiy
I've been trying to find a reason to stay, too. I'm sorry that you're going through it. I hate that anyone has to go through this.
Happinessfarmer72
Any way I can help you find reasons to stay?
ZachsAnomaiy
I need a friend but it isn't always that easy, nor works out with every given two people. But I appreciate your offer. I'm seeing a 1/2
ZachsAnomaiy
Therapist tomorrow and hopefully that will help. The time you took to write a reply to my comment means something though. 2/2
Happinessfarmer72
I hope the therapist works for you. PM if you need to talk or just want to drop a hello on some one
PunkyPumpkinTheCat
Hey man, if you ever need to talk about it to a random stranger that probably won't have any good advice for you. I'm here.
Happinessfarmer72
ditto
boodloop
Same here.
ladyloMonster
Same
ishalimi
we are all here ready to listen to you
Happinessfarmer72
It doesn't get rid of the pain it just gives it to your loved ones. I miss my nephew. Please don't make people miss you.
AroAce
Please don´t use this on depressed people it can make everything even worse.
Happinessfarmer72
What should i use? This is info that we all should know.
AroAce
Say that you are always there to talk and that you will always support the person.
Happinessfarmer72
Thanks. I'm kinda a better listener. I try not to say the first thing that comes to mind cause I kinda jump the gun so to speak.
Mechlai
When the pain gets bad enough, the feelings of others really don't matter. Source: Am clinically depressed.
SurfingWithTheAlien
I guess it depends on the person, personality,etc. Rgds clinically severally depressed who cpuld not öeave his wife no matter what.
SurfingWithTheAlien
Damn tiny keyboard. I trust you people are able to decipher my scribles.
Happinessfarmer72
What should I do/say to you too help?
Mechlai
I imagine there are a lot of different reasons that someone could be depressed, but for me, just saying hi helps. :)
Happinessfarmer72
Hi.
ProfanePag
You are right, but from a professional standpoint it is avised not to persuade with this argument. It deepens the depression.
Happinessfarmer72
What should I say? Really. I have no idea.
ProfanePag
Get help. You both (sufferer and relative) have to seek professinal help. You can find crisis help and therapies, and psychologists 1/2
ProfanePag
You can find good advices here: http://ucc.nd.edu/self-help/depression-suicide/helping-someone-in-a-suicidal-crisis/