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I’m asking everyone to take a moment and hear me out.
PTSD, or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, is becoming a rising problem in our society. Among civilians and soldiers alike. As a civilian with PTSD, this subject is very close to my heart.
It’s hard to describe what life under PTSD is like, but it does feel like a life sentence. The day I got officially diagnosed with it I sat in my car for 20 minutes and cried. It felt like a life sentence. I didn’t have the money for counseling, I couldn’t start taking medications, and I didn’t feel like I could open up to most of my family. I felt alone, cut off from the world and any chance of help.
I found hope though. I discovered a program that offered me enough free counseling to get back on my feet. I’ve got the symptoms more under control now, and I don’t feel trapped like I used to. My closest friend right now is a veteran who also has PTSD. Together we’re fighting to get back to healthy.
The answer is: you can’t. People with PTSD are fighting a battle in their psyche every day. I needed a lot of support to get to where I am now. And I know that not everyone with PTSD gets that support. That’s why I think associations like APTSDA are so important. They raise awareness and funds to help people like me battle the demons no one can see.
I’ve learned that “together” really makes a difference. If you need help (with PTSD, or any mental illness) seek it out.
This is for HG. I’m glad you’re still with me, man, and I appreciate you more than you could ever know. All I’m asking is that all you fine people of Imgur check out PTSD support associations and consider a small donation. Even $1 could make a big difference. https://www.aptsda.org/ is what I would recommend, but I’m sure there are others out there. And if you can’t afford to donate, just spreading awareness helps a lot. A lot of us are fighting invisible battles. But it gets easier when we can fight them together.
Hurlerontheditch10
Illness becomes wellness. Lovely words
WolololoWarrior
I'm continuing to fight bipolar disorder. Totally agree with the messages here. Thanks for sharing yourstory
Rkfinecake
EMDR, friends. It's an amazing tool. Just look it up.
cnastykat
Thank you for sharing:) i had similar struggles when i was diagnosed, took a long time to find progress. Please feel free to reach out:):)
Theresmyothersock
Diagnosed with PTSD and depression at the age of 19. Im nearly 29, still have some issues here and there but you get thru it. Good luck @OP.
TheBrokenBox17
RUOK @OP
SeanTheAlex
"You are worth more than your darkness". Never has a random quote made me sit back and feel like a little kid saying "Really?".
Heulengeist
I have good days, I have bad days, but mostly I have days where I put a smile on and it feels good, but I feel lost and empty inside.
muyfaggito
Struggling right now. I wish the people who care about me could see this.
TheNax
We can. Keep fighting, it's worth it. If you need a ear don't be afraid to write.
reddocs
I just feel someone is watching over me and my progress. Sometimes it's hard to find a reason to go on klike this, but I'm still here.
Haxor777
Days like this I wish things were better.
Eldibs
#6 if I lean backwards while I run, I outrun what's in my head. Seriously though, sleeping is the hardest for me.
PussyGotYourTongue
Needed to see this. Had a real bad breakdown yesterday due to flashbacks. Still shaking and crying. Thank you. Glad I'm not alone.
BethanyBridgers
It's hard reliving everyday in your head and no one can understand why you always feel like a fuck up. I hate that I remember everything!
TeddyBootz
Some truly wonderful perceptions. I had clinical childs depression and it’s lasted me all my life (I’m 31) but encouragement always helps.
faeriesmam
fellow ptsd survivor here. it’s about a traumatic stress, regardless of what that is (war, abuse, rape, car accident). stay strong, yall!
youneverreadthetitle
+1 for the grounding tool. Good luck on your journey to recovery @op
Carefuler
Ultimately it's a fight you have to win on your own though.
thelittlestnarwhal
Agreed 100%, but support can make a huge difference.
TransGirlsDoItBetter
Hey imgurians. If anyone needs a friend, check out these resources or drop me a message. Happy browsing.
KayRaven
I know all too well the stigma around mental illness, especially PTSD. Just because I've never been in the military, and just because I'm >
KayRaven
a teen, that doesn't mean I can't have it.
thelittlestnarwhal
I got mine as a teen.
DingoDingus
Struggling with depression right now, these made me feels better. Thanks OP +1
404errorscreennamenotfound
I'm here for you if you ever want another invisible imurgian to chat to @dingodingus - none of us have to go through this alone xx
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thelittlestnarwhal
Thank you!!!
CaptKirksNipples
I'm in the same boat. Stay strong. I don't know you but I believe in you. You can get through this.
VoIdemort
#1 This little girl won't stop waking me from my vat of black tar. Could someone please parent responsibly?
SinfullyChaotic
I am a civilian with PTSD, and am dating a vet with PTSD. It can be tough, but we support each other as much as we can.
ieatplantsbutimnotadickaboutit
BPD, it’s a struggle but having support and having help goes a long way.
DeadlyFood
Is there a term for not depressed but not happy? Cause thats what I am. A weird grey area
Psilocybinertia
Dysthymia ?
TheNax
If everything is just "grey" no matter what you do, it /could/ be depression, but also Anhedonia / both. Seek prof. help if that is the case
pretengineer
That's sorta the difference between bipolar depression and unipolar depression. Lethargy.
thelittlestnarwhal
If you feel apathetic and unenthusiastic about life that’s probably depression
ilovellamasmlemmlem
Might be worthwhile visiting your doctor in case symptoms get worse. Could be a mild case of depression.
DeadlyFood
Good idea
HorsesAreLikeWalkingCouchesWithAnxiety
I've been told so many times that because I'm civilian, I /can't/ have PTSD. Fuckers. Stay strong @OP
Ionlyupvotestupidstuffandboobs
The self-diagnosers from the bowels of tumblr have ruined it for everyone.
VivianVonBoom
Agreed. It's shameful.
thelittlestnarwhal
We can, and obviously do. Don’t let anyone dull your sparkle ;)
faeriesmam
my dad went on a date with someone who thought my ptsd wasnt real bc i’ve never served. he left.
bellyrubs
It's hard to be the depressed one in a relationship with someone who doesn't get it. That's why I'm alone now
ilovellamasmlemmlem
Please visit a doctor. You are not alone. I was diagnosed a few years ago and when I started talking about it, so many people I knew were >
ilovellamasmlemmlem
Also sufferers. It's amazing how much a little support can help.
ABirdWalkedOnMyPillow
When I was diagnosed I cried. It was like someone validated my pain and told me it wasn’t okay and it wasn’t all in my head.
thelittlestnarwhal
The exact same thing happened with me. It made all the pain, and emotions feel more legitimate.
raw0mbat40
I've been dealing with bad things my whole life. People have always looked at me like I'm making too much of it. I guessing trying to kill
raw0mbat40
Myself and ending up in the ICU for three days then a mental hospital for two weeks is just wanting attention.
ilovellamasmlemmlem
Sorry to hear this. Please seek professional help, it's amazing how talking to someone without judgement can help. Good luck!
EdwardStarsmith
13 yrs in EMS. I have memories that follow me around. Odors are a big trigger that can have me back in very deep weeds. Outside, you see 1/?
EdwardStarsmith
2/? my eyes glaze over and I seem to pause in thought. Inside, I'm reliving some seriously nasty stuff that happened long ago. I had a 2/?
EdwardStarsmith
3/? counselor that really helped, but he raped another patient and got put away. But he had me playing with cognitive dreaming, and it 3/?
EdwardStarsmith
4/? has helped. I still flash back. I still see, smell, and hear everything. But I know what it is and I don't experience the emotions. 4/?
EdwardStarsmith
5/5 I'm not saying it will help everyone, or anyone else. But it helped me. 5/5
VivianVonBoom
I'm late to this thread, but thanks for helping people. I'm sorry for the pain caused. Ptsd and dissociative disorder almost have to be 1
KRicci
I can't get a diagnosis from anyone. Heard hypersomnia, narcolepsy, lupus, Lyme, but not quite enough to confirm anything (1)
KRicci
I can sleep for 20 hours. I'm always exhausted, like in my bones. It's a nightmare. I wanna go a week without thinking every hour about (2)
KRicci
when I can next sleep, or falling asleep on campus. I'm terrified that I'll never love anything more than sleep. At the worst point, (3)
KRicci
I could take 30mg of Adderall and still fall asleep in my chair an hour afterward. But I constantly feel that I'm just seen as lazy... (end)
PunkRocksNotDead
Sounds like chronic fatigue or narcolepsy, I know the pain. Stay strong for yourself.
VivianVonBoom
Great advice. So hard for complex diagnosis in the age of 10 min doc appts. I hope your symptoms are well managed, friend.
Frostworks
Get some blood work done! Sounds a lot like things they checked for in me (it ended up being depression but we had to rule out anything else
KRicci
I would hate for it to be just depression. I go to school in a small town and all the therapists here are useless hippies
KRicci
(Note:) Adderall was legally prescribed; I've never abused any drugs.
CheddarFiend
This sounds like CFS but I'm sure you've looked into that?
mpaulson111
Plz get a sleep study done. Then see a Diplomat of Sleep Medicine to review the study with you. It's the only way to get properly diagnosed.