hazelismycatdog
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Dec 13, 2024 2:47 PM
hazelismycatdog
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taez555
#1 Pizza and buffalo wings. Still not sure of the type though. I genearlly always make pizza ever friday for the fam. Last week I made a lovely greek pizza with feta, kalmata olives, sun dried tomatoes and spinach. Turned out really well. I suppose it depends what the grocery store has in stock for ingredients after work. Kinda feeling simple peperoni though today.
ButtonsAreForPushing
#3 A brief moment of optimism: I went from being pretty fucking broken and working hard to heal to finding myself pretty happy on the flip side. It can happen.
EhtDeFu
For about 6 weeks in 2019 it was as simple as "why not be happy?" I really just decided to be happy and I was. Then I went back to the black hole that is me.
BarryTheCyborg
#8 I did not need to be attacked like this
hazelismycatdog
Sorry, Barry.
richardstinks
#8 I can't hold a grudge against my folks because they didn't understand how absolutely fucking anxious I was all the time, and how those interactions affected me. I couldn't explain it. They were raised though so they reacted to that.
Now that I'm grown, medicated, and relaxed, I don't do that shit to other people. I'll support things I don't understand or like as long as it's important to you.
cozynester
I have some lenience for my family in this regard as well, but I also have seen a home video that I made with my uncles handheld digi camera one year.
There are some ways they treated me that we all considered 'normal,' but when I saw the tape again as an adult it was filled with "Why on earth would you treat a child that way" moments
hazelismycatdog
Same. I, for longest time, would say, 'it's just how she is. She has trauma, and, it's just who she is. She did her best.' But.. now, I think, maybe she should have tried harder. Or just never have had children. I no longer accept her behavior. The past still hurts, but I'm working hard to stop new damage. Hugs on you.
Dawnbooth
#3 ugh, everyday silently apologizing to my children that I'm not the mommy they deserve and I want to be but hoping that I will be someday
hazelismycatdog
That you are aware is amazing. You do your best and that's the most you can do. Hugs on you.
Dawnbooth
Hugs back, thanks for saying that!