Depression is a bitch

Wingnuttage

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I feel like this all the time now. I've never been depressed like this, so much so that I think I've never really been depressed before. This is cumbersome. I've lost 18 pounds by stress alone. Speaking of alone, that's the perfect adjective to describe my situation. I can't eat and I can't sleep, and I'm just plain exhausted all the time. Regardless of what drove me to this in the here and now, I don't wish this feeling upon anyone. I finally understand mental illness. This is all a whole new realm for me. Been seeing a therapist for a few months now, and finally decided I needed to be medicated, and it's been 9 days of hell. Antidepressants are just making everything worse. Everything. I'm a fucking mess in every way shape and form, and I don't know what to do. Apathy and indifference have fully taken over. I'm sick of waking up in the morning and I have no purpose. Also, I'm heartbroken. What. The. Fuck?

Down vote and talk shit all you care to, it's not like I'd be shocked. Mental health is real, and it can deteriorate rather quickly. If you even have a semblance of the same feelings, know you aren't alone. Holler at me if you feel like talking to a stranger.

tankdlt

I’ve been going through this for 2 months now. Negative thoughts go in and out all day, and I’m not exaggerating. Finally slowly getting ovr

8 years ago |

Alex0713

Pretty much the same here but I can't afford a therapist but alcohol exists so

ChetBakersMissingTooth

I swear, you got this. Some how I'm still alive. My future wasn't too bright.

DirkNurple

I’m a veteran and survivor. DM with anything, anytime.

7 years ago |

foxfirelee999

Talk to me whenever

MrPeebles

That common experience with meds isexactly why I'm glad they're researching low dose psychedelics, et al. I hope the initial phase ends soon

Hades9119

Anabananafofana

Sometimes trying to peel myself from my bed seems like it wastes more energy than it will give if I did manage to leave it's sad but

Familiar comfortable embrace

LordSeraphon

weird for me, for 4 yrs of my life i felt depressed ending in thoughts of death but 1 day i said stop and it ended.i wish i could give u hug

I could use a hug

Twinklepot

IamjustArty

Eh trust me on this, either way you'll fall into not caring anymore and going with the flow of things, I've been depressed for quite some...

Time, and things haven't changed, even after therapy and all. You just have to think of a day as a day and let on fade to the next.

Better or worse, you'll be alright in the end. Because hey, not like you don't have others walking next you you on the same road.

PTProxie

First month is a nightmare. It'll slowly even out so long as you consistently take them. Look up progressive muscle relaxation, it can help.

Breathing is important and saying breathe in your mind over and over, focusing on it while gradually slowing and taking deeper breaths can

help calm you down. Exercises associated with anxiety and depression are not perfect by any means, but every little bit helps.

one2behold

Sometimes you have to experiment with lots of meds to find the right one or mix. Don’t give up. I know it is hard.

jeffyspazzin

Agreed, Weed and this drink a buddy of mine gave me called Brain Candy seems to work. I think my subconscious is preparing me for change.

The worst part is my emotions have become hyper flexible, if that's even a way to describe emotions. It's all just worsened. 1/2

aselleus

If you are feeling suicidal at all, please tell your doctor right away! Some meds are known to increase that feeling (like paxil).

And the side effects are brutal for me.

Life isn’t fair and this definitely sounds fucked. But I hope to hang in and find something that helps you push through. Wish I could help

I was depressed for almost all my teenage/young adult years, but a sudden break-up put me over the edge and I cried every night for 2 years

Would wake up all hours of the night and was underweight because i couldn't eat. I finally got on meds and it was a life changer for me.

The meds take a bit to get used to, BUT IT DOES GET BETTER. If the medication doesn't work, there are others. Good luck!

I am in my 30s now and in a MUCH better state of mind. The meds are a tool to help make things easier - it's not a cure-all.

They were good comments!

Noted. I have no idea what to expect, but I wasn't expecting it to make things worse.

I knew I needed to be proactive about this and sought therapy right away, then we both decided, after first deciding I didn't need meds, 1/2

That I needed meds. I could totally see myself crying to sleep forever. I'm glad you're doing much better!

Thanks! It's been 7 years since my low-point and I'm like a different person now. The meds helped me not feel despair and let me focus

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