I'm utterly broken

Found out after work today that my older sister (27) was found 'unresponsive' in her office on deployment as a medical officer in the armed forces. No debated about the meaning of that term, I have been crying for the past 6 hours trying to come to terms with this. She'd always had little nagging health 'things' over the years, but having her stolen from this world at such a young age has left my family (her husband included) completely destroyed.

We had the typical brother-sister hatred during parts of our childhood, but became extremely close once we both grew up a bit. I never get to see another movie with her, which was one of our traditions.

While retaining some anonymity, I needed to tell someone, however amorphous that someone is.

I'll miss you, KCL

Edit: thank you so much for the kind words, it really means a lot.

Edit 2: This goofy website never ceases to surprise me. Thank you so much for the out pouring of support, you all have big hearts and this is what I needed right now. Please pray for the rest of my family - over the past few years we've all settled in different places and many of us are grieving alone right now. We're working to get together soon, but it's still up in the air.

I'm doing better today, the distraction of work has helps a little. Will be picking up some spotted cow (sister's favorite beer) tonight and having a drink in memory.

Thank you imgur weirdos.