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Imgur God: I love you. Sometimes I feel too small but you have been big for me. I hope you know that I am grateful that you allowed me to survive swallowing 150 pills. It is only possible for me to be on this planet with divinity having stepped in. I am doing all I can to keep control while I am in treatment in California. Please help me understand my PTSD (sexual abuse), anxiety, depression, codependencies and my suicidal tendencies. I don't want to find myself a suicide flirting with a ledge again. I am sorry to you that I hit that point in my life. I will do everything in my power to find my happiness again. Thank you for brining my family together and helping me put my substance abuse down. 100 days sober. Thank you for the imgur community as they always make me feel better and distracted when I face hard times.
Love S.F in California
Raggedybowtielove
I found that achieving goals no matter the size helped me stay clean. Stay strong OP you can do it
Issima1984
You got this. One day at a time. My best friend has been sober over 4 years. Keep the good work.
Clockworkdancerobot
Stay strong, you can do it.
sightlesslion
Thank you
Catmaniac
You can make it !
TacosPlz
I prefer Pepsi
sightlesslion
Lmao
SgtMichaelCross
Please don't apologize - you've been through more than most, and you've got nothing to be ashamed of. One step at a time, and keep forward.
sightlesslion
Thank you
imfrompoland
219 dayz here gogo gl
Enohpoxas
Remember; You don't actually ever want to die. You just want to escape your current situation and problems. Power through it, you can do it!
boobcat
If I saw that I would think she was at risk of drowning.
LilyInteger
We love you, @op. You got this.
LeBunghole
Humble yourself and let go. Living in the past doesnt do anything except be more harmful. I know its hard. God bless.
MessWithTheCowAndYouGetTheUdders
You only need to stay clean today, OP. Just work on that and you will be okay! I have been doing it since 11/26/02, it works.
Saltyisthesea
Clean since 2012 after 14 years of abuse. It will get better for you. Just remember your true friends and drop the rest.
sightlesslion
That is what I was told to do and have done so far :)
Saltyisthesea
I recently touched base with them years after the fact. I noticed they talk to me with respect now. It's the best feeling. Keep it up.
Nerull
You can do this!!
Penguinofmyspirit
Not an addict, but have plenty of other things dragging me down right now. Trying to stay healthy and positive. I believe in you
sightlesslion
Thank you very much - I've never known addiction before all this - torment
Penguinofmyspirit
If you need someone to talk to, I'm all ears
boobcat
Coke free since 1973! Never tried it. Sounds addictive!
Si22mon
Hey girl well done. You are fighting a fight and you will win. I am on the same rd...its freaking hard...love to u x
MenagerieManager
AmeerAliHussein
One step at a time, one day at a time and you got this!
clickheretoseemyaccount
Sending you lots of love & support! I was there, it's tough, listen to what your counselors, people in meetings, etc. say. You are WORTH IT!
LukeNukeEm
Hang in there, OP!! You've made it so far! Keep marching along.
sightlesslion
Thank you
oenomaus
I recommend Pepsi, it's a lesser alternative to Coke but it helps me through the slow days.
BXHOVAYPCK
Suck a dick Chara
totototod
Even though I shouldn't, I appreciate you!
odraencoded
It's just no the same thing...
RainbowLlama
Hi Kendall
BangstickMagnum
How dare you!? Coke is the superior cola by leaps and bounds.
tobiastron
Jesus fucking Christ
fearandloathebananas
Oh, I bet you're really fun at riots.
imgjim
Plus if you get busted on a wild binge, just hand one to the cop and all is cool.
elovenakeksi
As a finn, i actually thought she/he was talking about coca-cola.... welp.
NicAtNite1708
I automatically thought op ment coca cola first and not cocaine...comments confirm I'm not the only one. Nice job OP! Keep up the good work.
ComoSeIguana
blepblepblepblep
pepis
beautifuldisaster1103
1-29-2007. Ten years clean from meth. You can do it. I have faith in you!
jackattackkk
I am in treatment in California too! One day at a time - keep up all the good work!
SqueakyWolf
I've been clean 3 years. I remember being there. if you need to talk hit me up.
SqueakyWolf
thanks.
sightlesslion
Congratulations
ThisAccountisforvoting
sightlesslion
Haha
boneclocks
Was 4 months sober, just had a relapse but I'm starting fresh again and feel stronger this time. I hope I can make it stick this time
ImPoopingBricksRightNow
Stay strong buddy:)
Issima1984
You can do it. Baby steps. May peace and serenity be with you
ThatTwerkingWhoreFromOliveGarden
You can do it!
voodoosexdoll
Me too man me too. Idk why I relapsed but it's terrifying. Message me if you want to talk. It's good to have a friend that's going through
voodoosexdoll
The same thing at the same time. We can make it
voodoosexdoll
@boneclocks
legitchrispratt
It's rough, cocaine is too good. Luckily I didn't get too deep in before I caught myself. Still get cravings whenever I see it on TV or movi
GirlInTheGreenDress
I could have written the same exact thing.
megabassist
I was offered it once, and I'm so glad I declined - I know I would have liked it too much.
lilskank
I've tried it multiple times. I liked it, but I thought it costed too much for too little reward. That, and stimulants aren't my cup of tea>
lilskank
because I have a bad habit of thinking in gonna die when my heart rate approaches 120.
youthnasia
I've been free from coke since feb 16 2016. I was a $800/week addict. I'd do just coke all day without drinking. I'm proud of you.
HEXADECIMAL
How'd you make $800 a week?
IveNeverSeenAnOcelot
This thing called a job
sightlesslion
Thank you for sharing I was roughly spending the Same
Kopilj
how do yall find the money for this
ConvertsToBananas
$800.00 can buy approx. 4,068 Bananas in the U.S. (beep boop ima bot)
TurtleHouseCat
Will you marry me?
ConvertsToBananas
yee
retnuh13423
If you don't mind, but how did you manage to buy that much? It seems like an addict wouldn't be able to afford that much?
ToenailCheeseMan
Middle class job. Low overhead.
HighFunctioningAlcoholic
Very possible to function on coke. Eventually shit goes to hell, but tolerance allows you to live a "real" life.
popper668
2-9-1999 I've been free from it all, you can do this
GiveMeCorndogOrGiveMeDeath
My boyfriend is like this...he is getting better but still a bitch.
MrKrissaa
The day after i was born. Quirky
InsertPotatoHere
Interesting perspective: I'm a college student and you got clean right around when I was born. Hope that helps in some way.
popper668
that's pretty bad ass
Muttmutt
Tonight we're gonna party like it's 2-8-99
sightlesslion
Lol
MayTheTriforceBeWithU
I would imagine that it was a pretty rough night.
sightlesslion
Thank you
RegisteredFlex0ffender
14 months today. I also suffer from PTSD and anxiety. You can do it. You are so strong! Never alone. Never again!
chickitycheckyourself
You can do it OP!
Downvotemepussy
12/1/2013 - clean from drugs and alcohol. 12 step program saved my ass.
sightlesslion
Thank you for sharing - I am in a 12 step but it's torment
Downvotemepussy
What do you mean
maziarv
It's hard, but you can do it. I constantly rework my steps. It hasn't gotten easier for me either, but there is love and support here.
popper668
It gets better
kah929
Finally broke down today and confessed to my parents about my drinking problem. I'm 24. Going on day 2 sober.
popper668
it's a start, you can build on it
kah929
Gonna have to. I got too much good to do, not gonna be a fucking drunk loser
popper668
hell yeah, never forget that!
kah929
Danke schoen!